Pieces Of My Heart....

Welcome to my life.

2007-04-24T07:00:00.001+08:00

I hate Mondays
and Tuesday.
How I wish today is Wednesday night.
Weekends were well-spent(i guess), lazing ard in the house,
having dvd-marathon and baking brownies.
I din have any ounce of energy to step out of the house.
The trip to IKEA was cancelled at the very last min and spent it by sleeping.
Suddenly the song , BIARLAH RAHSIA,
feels so close to the heart.

Pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika
bearda ditempatku..

I love my past life..
I miss School, I miss my beloved concession pass and the self-declared holiday :(

Gentle Reminder

2006-09-02T22:08:00.000+08:00

Hey Peepz!! I felt that is a lil misunderstanding here. Some of u still tagged me at my old n here -etherealbeauty-.blogspot.com. Do be reminded , IVE MOVED 2
http://-more-than-words.blogspot.com. Pay me a visit , Im waiting. Can't wait 4 those compliments n praises. :) .

saying goodbye

2006-08-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

It's hard 2 utter the words but i guess it's time 4 us 2 go our separate way. I'm really sorry , i cherished the heart-aches&pains we shared. U r the only one who understands me. In less than a month , it will be our 1st yr anniversary. It's time 2 say goodbye till we meet again.

The Multi-Tasker

2006-08-21T15:17:00.000+08:00

Bezfwen has been nagging me 4 not updating my blog. I can still hear her jabbering. The reason ; I was lazy But the truth is My time spending on e net now is limited. If there is a Time Management Course , i will definitely sign up 4 it(Provided if i hv e time) coz i really lacked the skill.

Half of time was spend on Musical training , Rehearsals and outing while the other quater were divided for work and school. Eversince i joined the musical production, my life was a total roller-coaster ride.I'm not complaining.I have this musical 2 thank 4 as it opens my social boundaries. Something 2 boast about in the future.Before my life was a total boredom. My regime was off to school , back home and weekends was reserved for work. I fi have a special someone , it will definitely a diffrerent story. For the time being , im all alone. I felt wanted and loved when everytime i chilled out with my musical buddies. We have the common interest.Performing Arts. I sacrifised my work juz 2 hang out with them , dat's how big their role in my Life. Therefore my parents started 2 question my whereabouts coz they noe im not e kind-of-girl who makes a fool of herself outside. I have 2 assure them that i'm not mixing with bad company by showing them Pictures of every hanging out session. Now , i earn back their trust.

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Sometimes i wonder , how some student can make it thru their school hours and then off to work at 6pm. Dont they feel tired at all?? A couple friends of mine , even work every single of the weekdaes. I'm awed with them."Why they can do it , but i cant??" Is it e mentality? I just don understand.

One Life , Live it

2006-08-18T00:19:00.000+08:00

I guessed u must be anticipating this post as it's been sometimes since i updated.
Sorry for the late update , i was lazy.

Let's start this with a higher note. I JUZ BOUGHT A NEW HP~!!I've been eyeing the baby and wanted 2 adopt it eversince but NOW its officially mine!Wow , Pinch me! It feels like a dream. Bezfwen will go green with envy when i show her tmr.Kwang3

Ytd , lesson was a mundane. we ended skewl at 12pm.Doink! 1hr lesson alone.WTF.Neways i went wif the other bunch of friends. My PP friends.We hung ard at Arab St. I had a marvellous time. They r the closest thing after my musical friends. We bought ourself a Voodoo doll from Granpa's Collection.It cost us 1buck only.Seriously , after sucha long time i din updated i lacked of adjectives 2 describe all the things i had done 4 e past few daes.The pichas tells u all so ENJOY!

ASHA , I GOT A NEW HP 6280!!!Bluuuuuuuueeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!

A Boom And A Blast

2006-08-10T08:08:00.000+08:00

Pick-up lines

The Tuna Spaghetti N pasta was superb.We were famished.3 tupperware of Food were gone in mere 30mins.Haha.The grand finale was consumed by Fit.She's a really a big eater Yet she soo slim.Haiz.Neways we did not get 2 have our half-price waffle at Gelare due 2 some unforseen circumstances.We ended up eating ah-pek ice-cream along e esplanade.The place was packed , we were scrutinizing 4 a spot for the best view. There r alot of options , some wanna sat at e Merlion coz it will be a beautiful view but it was soo a long walk away and i suggested we sat near where the display gonna be held. We walked a few steps and we squeezed our way on the corridors.By then it was already near 7pm.It was such a loong wait but it was worth every single sec coz i get 2 spend my time with fabulous friends who shared the same passion as me.They were Bezfwen , Alan, Faiz , Fit , Hid ,Juz, massurah , agnes , rebecca , vivien , peishan n april.Those who wanna came "bubble" at e last min was Firuz.Watever!Neways , we sang along the song from some humongous stereo system coming from the merlion area n yakkety-yak.Some them met a few friends which Juz put it Long-Lost Brothers.Haha.As we had another 2hrs , Alan decided 2 get some Butts so bezfwen ,hid and Me accompanied him.We went all the way 2 Marina Sq. It was like sardin in a can, We had 2 stick near 2 each other. We thought of buying some foods , unfortunately e queues at Macdonald was snake-like.Then we went 2 7-11 , it was packed 2.I grabbed some hotties combo while they bought mineral water , pringles , ruffles n Mineral water. I was sweating by then coz we had 2 push thru the crowds. It took us nearly 45mins 2 get back. We dangerously crossed the road n luckily my bladder system was in gd condition , i need not 2 pee that much coz e toilet will be(u noe wat).When we reached there , every corners , every steps and every space was occupied by ppls. We had 2 tip-toed our way thru upon reaching our space , some ungracious citizens had plopped themselves in our area.I had 2 be in a cramped situation , it made me breathless.We continued singing n Finally booming sound came on and the sky was full of colours.It was beautiful , we whistled n clapped n jumped.The crowd was happening. Everybody gushed and i heard oohs-n-ahhs. I saw heart shaped firweorks.It was incredible.The sparks had a 3d effect so it looked like it was raining on us.Faiz asked all of us 2 make a wish coz some look like shooting stars , others as Juz put it as Spermies!Haha.If there is someone special beside me at the moment , it will be the most memorable night.

Fireworks @ Marina

After the grand ended , we walked along the stretch of Sg river 2 meet up with JK. We had a nice strolled viewing the scenery and feeling the night breeze.I got lost in the middle of Traffic.It was hilarious.The night was cooling.And i imagine i'm walking with someone.It will be passionate.Haha.Some of them decided 2 hang ard or "thon" . I was wondering where would it be. We waited 4 JK near the Raffles Statue area where the Pubs n Clubs are.I was shagged , we took group photos b4 bidding gdbyes.

How do i explain this feeling?
When i saw him , My heart did not pumped faster.
My eyes did not focused on him when he was far away.
I look into his eyes when we had our conversation.
I did not avoid any situation that we shared.
I thought i was over him coz the feeling was nowhere to be found.
I already accept the fact we are just meant to be friends.
But why I feel a slapped when he had his eyes on her?
Why did i felt pain and my heart throbbed when i saw them together?
I need the answers.I can't rest in peace.
Evertime when i'm alone i pictured them together , It made me teared.
I know i had let it go ,Let it fly away .
But how do i explain this feeling?
I don want 2 jeopardize my friendship with Both of them.
I don want to do this anymore , I don want to be the reason why.

It worth a trip

2006-08-07T08:19:00.000+08:00

Irene , my vocal teacher for our Musical Classes were having a cooking Demo at Fairprice TM. I was already available at TM coz im working there till 2pm.Her demo was 3pm n 5pm and as the musically-active ppl wanna meet her for her last session , I had 2 rush back home n came back down again.We were 2 meet at 4.30pm but i sms-ed April i'll be meeting them at 5pm but i reached at 5.15pm.(Duh!as if u donnoe me ;)Neways , as i was late, i couldnt watch her expertism in cooking.I only able 2 have a sample of Mushroom Spaghetti. Yummy But Healthy. The enthusiasistic ppl were April , Faiz , Alan , Kristin , Asyraff and Me! Actually i was hesistant 2 dropped by but Faiz called me n dragged me along.Morever Bezfwen wasnt there , She's my catalyst(2 mingle ard with them)I know it's been more than a month i hang ard wif them , i still need more time 2 make myself comfortable. So , we had a drink at BK munching Onion Rings N french Fries. As usual , I was the listener and irene noticed that i've been quiet all along the conversation. Faiz cheekily told them "Ouh really ,she's talkative in Msn"She talked with her fingers. We are teasing each other n our main target was Faiz.
It all started e nite b4 where we had our late-nite conference in MSN. I had a fun time chatting with them.From Bezfwen, Alan , Faiz and me ,it bloomed to April ,Steven, Suhailah. We were talking Crap and singing along with JACOB AND SONS! Lotsa happening there. Then , i was suprise with a magic word by Alan."Fit"I nudged Bezfwen then she said knew bout it. I wasnt expecting it , yeah i observed a few times ard that Faiz n Fit r close 2 each other but it proof more when Alan "accidently" said it. I did not feel upset or deprssed as i rather threw away 3/4 of the feelings away. I don want 2 carry the burden ard. What's the use of liking some1 if he don reciprocate it. In malay idioms(Bertepuk sebelah tangan).I pretended nothing happens. I don want 2 lose a friendship. I rather give him 2 sum1 else than losing Faiz as a friend.
But i wont take a NO ,if he likes me.Haha.
Neways, Then Bezfwen gave me a suprise she came down to meet us. I was relieved. After sending irene off , we went 2 Sembawang CD shop and chilled at Coffee Bean.
April left in a hurry.Haha.This phrase tickles me(Hmm..well that is another story). Juz imagine if Bezfwen did not come , i would be alone with the 3 guys and i will hyperventaliate. I'm not good in hosting ppl ard.Haha.We talked till nearly 9pm.Pity asyraff who had been yawning bside me.He had a hangover the nite b4.So he was already droopy.We send them off halfway and i reached home 15mins b4 10pm.I already missing my Musical mates.Lurve u guys lots!And yeah , we going 2 have another trip 2 marina tmr 2 watch the fireworks display.I cant wait!

High on cloud nine

2006-08-05T18:15:00.000+08:00

Akram sniggered upon hearing Ashraff who was already stoned in the head.
He was sitting wif TWO sheesha pipe in mouth N took ONE deep suck and exhaled it thru his nose."The Ultimate record was actually putting 3 sheesha pipes into a mouth.It was hilarious every one of them who did that looks like they r having 2 big tomato.
Duh! ,Of coz i had a few puffs.It smelled fruity but the texture was powdery and it tasted tobacco.Nuff said 2 tired 2 type.Enjoy e pics..

3 humongous sheesha

I lurve 2 suck..Soot soot egyptian princess

romantic

2006-08-05T17:17:00.000+08:00

Romantic Dreamy Emotional

You are a very sensitive person. You refuse to view things only from a sober, rational standpoint. What your feelings tell you is just as important to you. In fact, you feel it is important to have dreams in life, too.
You reject people who scorn romanticism and are guided only by rationality. You refuse to let anything confine the rich variety of your moods and emotions.

A pleasant suprise

2006-08-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

As i poured the bottled water on Fel's head , I felt a sense of accomplishment. Revenge is sweet. The Ultimate euphoria will be the day where she will get her retribution. The MIA gerl really will get her buckets of water and powder.I'm waiting , u can run but u can't hide. She gets on my nerve. It's all fun but she gets out of hand. Ouh , i 4get she has yet 2 turn 18. Young , slow and stupid.Haha.The Babes sabo-ed me and they did not intended 2 actually. It was MIA's idea. She even volunteered 2 buy the johnson&johnson powder. The results white-haired cum dandruff. All thanks 2 them. It took me ages to cleanse my hair but the flakes stuck 2 my scalp. And when Powder meet water on a clothing. It gave a milky run and i had 2 walk around school(it happened after lunch)with patches of white on my black skirt! how humiliating. But the bestest part was when i received the pressie. It was something i had in mind.A combination of blue coloured PONY bag. It's Branded Ouhk. Thou it's not a typical PUMA ,ADIDAS or CONVERSE. I lurve it. It made me stand out from the rest. I like it 4 it's versatility. They bought it from Royal Sporting Hall. I gonna checked out the price.Thanks Gerls 4 the Pressie.

Also ytd i get an ultimate present from my Bestfren , thou she 4get my bdae ,she reasoned she remembered the date but she did not realise it was on that day. Sadly she did not give me any pressie. Well it's the thought that count and this is what happened.
My greatest wish on my bdae was a suprise party. I felt love if i would to be given a Suprise Party. Im waiting 2 have one and i hinted 2 her a few weeks b4 the Big day.
Ytd , during The Musical Training , she had something on her sleeve , i did observed but i did not expect it. The way she had a hush- hush talk with some of our friends.No wonder , my musical mates wished me on my bdae . When we were having our de-briefed, i was playing with my hair in exhaustion. After 10mins, i thought everything had ended when Akram made an annoucement ;
"Ms Fhasha here has a request , We going 2 sing a happy Birthday to Jannah who turns 19 last week"
Bestfren waved "it was on Monday"Then she smiled cheekily at me b4 signalling therefore the roars of
"Happy Birthday to u"
"Happy Birthday to u"
"Hppy Birthday to Jannah"
"Happy Birthday to u!!!!!!!"
I was stunned , It did not crossed my mind. All the way the songs commenced i was grinning like a dork. Paiseh Leh. I was touched coz thou they was no cake floating towards me , i felt special when everyone acknowledged my Birthday.
Thanks Cha 4 the suprise , I'm Speechless.It make my 19th Birthday NOW special. Tee hee :).

Then they was Makcik , gave me a somekind of table lamp. The bulb is in a blue bottle. It was quite authentic. I was afraid to switch on as i afraid it might explode.Haha.I probed Makcik whether there is any insurance.
Unfortunately ppl , i cant post my pressie pictures coz the cam's batt is damn low. Chet.

Untitled

2006-08-02T12:31:00.000+08:00

aku, masih di sini sendirian mencari apa yang aku mahu
aku, masih lagi keliru bersendirian memahami hidup ku
aku, masih bergini mengharapkan kasih yang tak kunjung tiba
aku, dah pening tak tau nak tulis aper lagi
aku, dah bosan ngan keje ku rasa macam nak berenti jer
aku, dah tak paham aper yang aku dok merepek nie
aku, dah kesian kat korang yang terpaksa membaca aper yang aku tulis ni dah lah tuh..
gi lah sambung keje korang nie.. layan jer lahh

Not-so-special-19

2006-07-31T13:46:00.000+08:00

The time has arrived. A year older and wiser. Not a girl Not yet a woman. 19.
What so good being 19?
When u are 16 , u r able 2 watch NC16.
When u are 17 , u have a memory of Sweet Seventeen OR
When u are 18 , U r eligible to smoke , drink , drive And Clubbing!
Then turning 20 , Its a BIG significant coz There's a 2 infront No more 1.
When 21 , No more parents consent form!
Let me repeat 19?What so special being 19??
Thou it did not have any special regulations but it make a great affect on me.
19 is the age where i independently swallow the pills and capsule(fuh..finally)
19 is when i become more of a smiley and approcable person.
19 is the time when i successfully shed a few kilos and counting.
I hope 19 will bring tons of good luck 2 me.My wishes in the wishlist comes true.

The Feeling is mutual.I let it flew so it can be carefree again.I'm happy Now No more pondering.

SurREAL Love

2006-07-29T13:18:00.000+08:00

Real Love
by Massari

Boy, Boy I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby boy I want you to know
I"m watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about
Baby I was there all alone
When you'd be doin things that i would with you
I picture you and me all alone
I'm wishing there was someone i can talk to
I gotta get out outta my head
Buy baby boy I gotta see you once again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Boy, Boy I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby boy I want you to know
I"m watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

(Every night and now) when I go to sleep
I couldn't stop dreaming about you
Your love has got me feeling kind of weak
I really can't see me without you
And now you're running round in my head
I'm never gonna let you slip away again
It's real love that you don't know about

Every now and then when I want you
I wish that I could tell you that I want you
If I could have the chance to talk with you
If I could have the chance to walk with you
Then I would stop holding it in
And never have to go through this again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Boy, Boy I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby boy I want you to know
I"m watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

Today when I saw you alone
I knew I had to come up and hold you
Coz boy I really gotta let you know
All about the things you made me go through
And now as you looking at me in the eye
And now you got me hoping I ain't dreaming again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Every now and then when I want you
I wish that I could tell you that I want you
If I could have the chance to talk with you
If I could have the chance to walk with you
Then I would stop holding it in
And never have to go through this again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Boy, Boy I'm going outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been running outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby Boy I want you to know
I"m watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

You're the one that I want and no one can take
it from me
No, no, no, no, no
Even though I don't really know you
I got a lot of love I really wanna show you
And you'd be right there in front of me
I can see you passing in front of me
No, no, no
Boy I need your love,
Baby I need your love.

Lovely song , Aches my heart everytime i listened to it.
About a guy who did not have the courage to tell the girl that he likes her.
So near yet so far.
Hence , i changed the Baby Girl to baby Boy.
I know how u feel man.

intensely enticing

2006-07-27T11:17:00.000+08:00

While waiting for the dance training to begin , I and Bunch of friends were entertained by 3 amateur dancers. They pranced around the room , jumping N shaking their booty.I saw salsa , tango and hiphop.They shook to the sounds of ballads , slow rock and reggaeton*roll eyes*.
They danced every number in the CD and only 1 song that gives me the goosebumps.
Sway by Pussycatdolls.The song where Faiz and Massura paired up.Their dance was sensual and what attracted me was their chemistry.I was mesmerised.They really tell a story with their steps.I can't help but stare especially Faiz's eyes.He looked into Massura eyes with great passion.I get shivers when they danced that.If Faiz is to stare into my eyes so intensly enticing , i will definitely go breathless and he has to give me CPR.
Chet.I think im falling in lurve with his eyes.

is this the sign?

2006-07-26T17:16:00.000+08:00

Why be miserable when u don even noe the future aite?
Bcoz u've been thinking bout it too much and i mean it(too much)
I don wanna be pessimistic but thats my nature.
Always yakketing bout Jinx and badluck.
If u'r in my heels , u will emphatise for me.
I need compasssion.Hahaha humour me.
Life aint perfect.(Mine's much worse)
I juz waiting for a change.Waiting?
I don seize oppurtunity.I'm afraid of being laugh at.
I wait for the one.
I wait for my dream.
I wait for happening moments 2 befall on me.
I wait for the day when all of it happen.
I wait for everything.
I don depend on u or u or u.
A sense of loss.

*Happy bdae Yan!I'm waiting to have a ride on ur bike!
Wishing you all the best for ur future and may u have allah blessings all day.*

Don't take it away from me

2006-07-24T16:24:00.000+08:00

Meet the musically-inclined ppl.A bunch of Loudest , Craziest and Horniest People.All from different walks of life.First impression lotsa Minahs And Mats and i thought we would not have any chemistry.Luckily i was wrong , The Musical Dinner on Friday make us known to each other. Everyone was enthusiastic. We watched the original Joseph and his multi-coloured dreamcoat on DVD.I had a blast.I was hoping it would be a long night.
But time passed when u are having fun , it was a night to remember.
I can't imagine what will happen on the night when the curtain calls close. Everyone will shed tears.We are ONE BIG family.Eternal Friends ever.

Musical babes N dudes

The Retards

Getting More Retarded

We going Bonkers

The next dae was our dance workshop at NAFA School of performing arts , All of us look exhausted but all were hyped to have together again.I really love them alot.They bring in smile on my face.Only Laughter in the air.

But there was one incident when we were walking in search of food.It was a tiring day as in the morning we had our vocal training , then in afternoon the dance workshop.I was shagged.I guessed it showed in my face But i thought nothing of it.Unfortunately my mate think otherwise , as Firus commented how come my face look soo down, "Jannah asal kaunye muka cam gitu"I was dumbfounded and add 2 the strangest part was when Faiz chipped in and said "Her face is alwaes grumpy and everybody has been talking bout her face"

I was appalled, they've been talking behind my back.I was a teeny-weeny offended coz Faiz made a public annoucement of it.

Asha N e rest of the gerls surrounded me"Faiz noticed u so make full use of it"

Hmm....

Asha pulled me aside and "told ya u should smile "_____"more , ur face is alwaes grumpy". I was aghasted and everytime i walked past a mirror or some sort of reflection thingy, i make sure that i had a smile on my face.

In the evening , i msn-ed with Faiz and i asked him bout my fierce face and he said "thank god , that u have the face coz u can be respected or be a fierce teacher"I was shocked by the "tone" so i did not ask more.Sensitive.

I guessed my musical mate are more observant than the rest.I hope they don't only see the weakness.

The Beautiful Ppl

Clockwise from top:Sufyan , me ,syirah , khai, hidayah n Mr ITE fahmy.

Do you know im the elders of amomg us

Arent we photogenic?

Who needs enemy?

The five beauties

L-R:Hidayah(part 2),Fhasha aka my Bezfwen, Syirah, Me and Kak Fit

Need to say more?

Kak Fit nak ice-cheam!! :p

I'm going to send this to Darlie Advertisement

I'm missing them already , i cant wait for our dance practise coming wed from 6pm-9pm.How romantic the atmosphere.Huhu.

*My heart spiralled into a turmoil.I never been a heartbreaker but i alwaes get my heartbroken.Does Cupid Hates me so much that it prevented it from happening?

History does repeat itself

2006-07-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

I promise here and now onwards. I'm not going to fall in lurve again.

The feeling is surreal

2006-07-21T08:18:00.000+08:00

The Feeling is so surreal.The last time i had the feeling was during Secondary 3. After the Bitter Experience , I never want to have this feeling again.But it comes back to haunt me.I think im in love.I think I am.After years running away from this feeling , at last it caught up with me.The Moment i saw him , I just can't help but to stare at him.While others like 2 make up conversation wanting to know their crushes better , I tried to avoid talking to him.His presence make me blush.And everytime we exchange sentences , i will go stammering and looking down on his lips.I tried my best not to have eye contact with him.
What contradicts the feeling that we are just aquaintances , I see him around and our communication was Hi and Bye.I really wanna talk to him but i'm afraid i might make a fool of myself.I don want to be too hopeful coz i gonna hurt myself.I don wanna make the same mistake i did 3years ago But i knew that i already had.I can't changed who i am.Its either i show my interest to him OR keep it in my heart.The latter is the true me.I don have the courage or confidence to.

Remember The Book of all answers?
Yep, I tried my luck again.I don believe all the crap it said but it is a fun way wasting my time.I did not follow the instruction , i only concentrated on the qn.

Just wait and see what happen

I nearly shrieked ou loud when i saw the answer.My mind was making up all types of scenarios.My question was.......

Do (Let's Call him X) know i like him And will he like me too??

It's either Bad or Good News.Please , Please Let it Be an Enouragement for me to show my feelings to him.

I don want to run away again.I'm tired.But i'm too shy to even make friends with him.I don want history to repeat itself again.

One is inevitable.Twice is disheartening.Thrice will be life-threatening.

For the Meantime , I seek the book advice by waiting..But i don want to wait anymore!Enuff with all the waiting i done 3years ago coz it flew away leaving me stranded.

Wishing me a happy bdae 2 me

2006-07-19T09:05:00.000+08:00

Jeng Jeng Jeng

N-O-T

S-O

S-P-E-C-I-A-L

Guys stop hitting on gerls , Ladies plz protect ur modesty AND both Treat each other equally..

2006-07-13T16:09:00.000+08:00

Im afraid if its happen 2 me..Will i ever have the courage 2 leave him Or still stick with him and endure all his nonsence..I never been in her shoe much less in a relationship but if u are in love , nothing can separate ur love to him..NOT even ur beloved family who born and bred u..Thats why we alwaes hear the phrases.."Love is blind"
It happened 2 a friend of mine,Her "boyfriend" is totally possesive towards her.. He did not trust her whereabouts..He did not let her 2 stay in contact with her friends..Weekends spend are with Him Only..Period.There is one incident when we were hanging out together after such donkey years..We were halfway through our destination..When she had 2 leave us as her so-called "Boyfriend" wanna meet her at JurongPoint and he was mad at her 4 not telling him that she was meeting us..Blardy Fark!!!I was dumdfounded who do he think he is?!And she have 2 go all the way from Yishun to BoonLay..I was shocked..She had been tied down by this man who is NOT even her husband.. More shocking was When i found out that she had been Physically abuse by her "Boyfriend"I was appalled..No wonder i saw her arm livid..But she retort that she accidently poked herself to a sharp pointed object..We bought her story coz we did not noe the truth..
The most saddening part was she refused 2 leave him..She would get upset everytime we advised her..She would be all sulky..She LOVES him N HE "loves" her too..She has yet 2 realise the fact that she had been slapped in front of her mother!Her mom was paralysed with shock..Luckily her Dad was at home and he heard the commotion..He barged towards the Bastard and held on shirt and threatened 2 report the matter 2 the police..He threw the "Boyfriend" out and disallowed her 2 be friends with him..Still she was stubborn and continued seeing him..She was defiant towards her parents too when they get protective.. And she was thrown out of the house..she stayed with her grandparents at the moment..And still seeing the Bastard..I pitied her..I donnoe wat has her "boyfriend"do 2 her that she still stick with him for all had happen..
Love makes u go beyond your means and sacrifice whatever u had in your life..Don't be a victim 2 love..

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Its the time of the month..And the hassle of wearing a pad is unavoided..I hate it when it comes to the tear and paste part..No matter how accurate u paste u still have leakage , No matter the brands advertised NO MORE LEAKAGE.. There still will be..And also the hassle throwing it away after use..THis is the part many Ladies has yet 2 learn..Please Ladies you are all grown up..Dont treat the sanitary bins as juz a normal rubbish bin..Its disgusting when i saw ur soiled pad facing upwards and worse stuck underneath it!Eeeuuuuuuuu!!!!!!

I don want 2 noe wats the colour of ur drainage system..I had mine 2 worry..

Its embarrassing..Morever i saw all this happenings at the basement of the Office Toilet at Suntec City!!Precisely They are all corporate ladies..I did not noe that Ladies in suits have Jelly for their brains..Please Protect ur Underneath!!

The world is round not squared

2006-07-10T14:59:00.000+08:00

Hey There!
Assalammualaikum wr wb.
It a nong nong time since i Post and Yeah 2dae post will be in a nong nong sentence..So get ready a cuppa and a green apple 2 perk urself up..I'll be offended if i see u nodding off after 2 Paragraphs..

Let bygones be bygones..Life has 2 go on..I don wanna be reminded of the past..

The past few daes had been hectic for me..The Schedule was tight and i find myself breathless..Seriously i don feel lyke im having a skewl holidaes..
(ouh..didn't i tell u now is my term break?)I have 2 go 2 skewl to attend The Musical Training..Dancing Lessons on Wed N Fri While Vocal Training Falls On Saturdae..And the rest of the daes i spent working..Im really shagged..
What Worse..Ive been sick all this while..Splitting Headaches , Runny nose N Cough..Was it e Humid weather OR My Immune system is low..
Its sickening coz every early month i will visit the doctor for the same reason N i wasted 1/4 of my pay there!
The icked factor was when i cough i knew dat my phelgm were waiting 2 see e world but when i wanna spit it out , it hesitate and paste itself on my throat N (U noe the feeling arr..)Squeamish!!

Sometimes ago..B4 the tragic incident..I was having a ball of a time meeting my closetie during the secondary skewl daes..The Last tyme we met was during the Hari Raya Gathering..We have our late lunch at Pastamania
at Cineleisure N had our dessert at Coffee Bean..Brownies anyone?It was a short meeting coz Liy had 2 go off early..I was satified..Missing her lotsa.. A few daes l8r..I went 2 meet Makcik for a hair-cutting session..FYI , Ive been having e same long layered hair since secondary school..The only time i had a change of style was during my sec 4 year..It was embarrassing i cut it in a babydoll style with fringe..Gawd!My classmate and friends thot a new student juz move in..
I played hide-n-seek a few weeks..And then when i entered ITE , I decided 2 have short hair..I look boyish..(which is disgusting)But i have 2 opinions , Some prefered me with short hair coz i look cuter while the other half like me best with long hair..Me?I look unpresentable in both..Aiyoh!
Yeah..I took some pics but i shy larh wanna show u ppl..Sorwie ehk..Nxt tyme..
Hehehehe..Ouh..Makcik oso cut her hair..Bob Style"in"thing now..She was the one who dragged me 2 try out a new style..Hahaha..But i end up having e same cut..Layered Shoulder length..Im sooo conventional..Boring...

You'll be in my heart

2006-07-02T23:26:00.000+08:00

Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry
For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry
'Cause you'll be in my hear
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always
Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep in side us
We're not that different at all
And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know
When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together
'Cause you'll be in my heart
Believe me, you'll be in my heart
I'll be there from this day on
Now and forever more
Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always
Always
I'll be with you
I'll be there for you always
Always and always
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
I'll be there
Always

The Song i sang 4 baby 2 put her 2 sleep or when she started her non-stop shrills..Its been 16hours since she left me..I misses her alot..Every minute i kept thinking of her..*If only i knew it wiould happen , I would prevented it from happening..
*If Only=2 words when someone cant accept e reality..

Yes!I cant accept that Baby's Dead..It never crossed my mind..Ytd Baby acted differently..Her pitches getting louder thou i soothed her she wont stop her shrill..I ignored it as i think it was normal..Sadly..I was wrong..And i paid the price..The worst part she died NOT in my arms But beside me..
As usual when i woke up , I stroked and gave her a kiss..I realised that she was not moving..Suddenly i started crying and screaming..
"bABy bangun!!"Baby dah mati"Asal dier mati?!"Nie sumer salah akak!"
Everything was a blurred..I cant concentrate..Tears kept streaming down lyke a waterfall..

I never ever felt so lost and Alone..My family was insensitive and they expect me 2 move on in juz a few mins!I was appalled..They even suggested i threw Baby in the chute..It was depressing..My parents had been objecting for keeping Baby bcoz she was juz a kitten and has yet 2 open her eyes..I knew they were concerned as we already have 2 grown-up cats.. It was all my Lil sis fault..She was the one who picked the stray up..And i was the one who was took care of her!My sis only knew 2 play wif Baby..I've become a surrogate mother who took care every of her needs..I missed stroking her . patted her . washed her wif cotoon wool soaked in warm water and put her 2 sleep..Most of all..I missed Hugging Baby , 2 feel her fur on my face..

If onle i had send her 2 SPCA..The death would be avoidable..Bcoz of my procrastination..I had 2 bear the conseqeunces and I'm now in pain..

Call 2 SPCA in the morning the day b4 Yesterday..
Mie:Hello..Gd Morning..I need some advice,my sis found a kitten who's eyes had not open?I checked the internet..(Describe e procedure)Am i doing it right?

SPCA:Yes u are..

Mie:Ive made som plans 2 send it 2 U..Can i take it back in a few weeks tyme when she grows..

SPCA:I'm sorry once u send 2 SPAC..It's ou property therefore u had 2 consider as if the Kitten cant make it..We will have 2 let it go..I hope u understand..

Mie:(Hearts Pounding)Uhh..Yeah..I will think it over..Thanks..

SPCA:U welcome..have a nice day..

I don wanna part with Baby as i've been taking care of her since 5 days ago..The bond i had with her..I loved Baby soo much..BUT *If only i had send her 2 SPCA..At least she would be alive and kicking , growing up 2 a healthy cat..
Not BE dead!I'm guilty..I was the one who caused her death..I've 2 blame myself..

Now..I'm trying 2 stand again..Thou my heartache..This is e 1st tyme a death fall upon me..I have 2 stay strong..Death is in the hand of Allah..Everything that happen has a reason..

I thought i had dried up my tears from all the crying..But as i laid on my bed Hugging to Baby's Comforter(My old t-shirt),her mini milk bottle and syringe..Two large tears rolled down my cheek..And i knew that i still yet 2 get over her..

Allah..Please give me strength 2 live my life..Dont haunt me with Guilty..
Locked every memories of Us deep inside the back of my mind..I just want 2 have some peace..

Cant take it anymore

2006-07-02T08:44:00.000+08:00

If i let u go , i will never noe..
What my life would be holding u close 2 me..

Forgive me 4 making u cry..
Forgive me if i did not comfort u..
For now i live in regret..
Knowing u are now dead..

My heartache..
Tears streaming down..
Thou i cry blood..
I noe i wont bring u 2 life..

So fragile so vulnerable..
I betrayed e trust u had in me..
I wont 4give myself for this..

The moment i saw u stop breathing..
I noe u had leave me..
if only i had realise it..
2dae u will still be beside me..

I will cherished the memories wif had..
U will alwaes be in my heart..
No noe can replace..
4 e last yme im saying goodbye.......

In loving memory of Baby

27.06.06-02.07.06(6.43am)

7 kaypohs

2006-06-27T11:11:00.000+08:00

Thanx Asha i felt soo loved when u tagged me..Hahaha..Here goes my wasted tyme..

7 randoms fact about me
- I collect movie stubs
- I prefer coffee bean to starbucks
- bulding castles in the air is my favourite pastimes
- I adore Man in Blue And Man In Black
- I Enjoy a sing-a-long session(karaoke ler)
- I'm searching for happiness
- I'm a very2 shy chick

7 Random Things That Scared Me
-Allah
-brutally rape
-being rejected
-Loneliness
-Men
-Darkness
-losing my mom

7 Random Music At The Moment
-You give love a bad name -atreyu
-Before i fall in love - Coco Lee
- Dejavu - Beyonce feat Jayz
-Geek in the Pink -Jason Miraz
-Biarlah Rahsia -Siti Nurhaliza
-Penantian - Black Rose
-Pertama-Hyrul Anuar

7 Random things i like the most
-Hyrul anuar
-Playing with my cats
-Burning the internet wire
-Having a cold bath
-Reading Material
-Blogging
-Perfumes

7 Random Things i say the most
-Huh?
-Im bored..Dead bored..
- I anything
-What did not kill me make me stronger
-blardy hell!
-Jannah Jannah Jannah
-Not Funny!

7 People to do this
-Mark
-Nani
-Kak pau
-Nisa
-Wani
-Izie
-Dilah

Kecohrable!

2006-06-25T10:47:00.000+08:00

Hyrul And Azmir at Big Splash

having a ball of a tyme..

Isnt she pweetie?She's one hot mama!

DJ Sempoi still gd-looking thou soaking wet from e adventure obstacles..haha

Dina Malaysian IDol..Wow!I took pichas wif her!!

Painting the town red

2006-06-23T21:54:00.000+08:00

Let the pichas do the talking..

Arent we gorgeous?Heh.

If it meant 2 be..

2006-06-21T09:52:00.000+08:00

I like him.I like him Not.I like Him.I Like him Not.I like Him.I like him Not.
I like Him.I like Him Not.I like Him.I like Him Not.I like Him.I like Him Not.

whether it is an Infatuation Or "Real Love"..Hah!Im sniggering already..
Sometimes i feel comfortable around him But sometimes i just feel lyke running 10 miles away from him..
What do i call this feeling?
I feel guilty by giving him signals..I , Myself is unsure about my feelings 2wards him..

7 True facts bout him..

1.He is a bit religious(A bonus Pt there)
2.He's chatty
3.He loves 2 complain about everything even petty stuff.(Yikes!)
4.He is NOT a SNAG but Metrosexual
5.He's Vain
6.He is sometime dependent And Clingy..(Urrggghh!!!Suffocating..)
7.He is the evil twin of Haji Bakhil..

From this statement..should i go liking him??He dont even have any traits of my dream Guy except that He is A bit Religious..

Why Oh Why i get myself in this situation??

Happy Pak Day

2006-06-19T11:12:00.000+08:00

HaPpY Pak Day!!

Alhamdullillah..They are Happily Married for 21 years..

First and foremost..I wanna wish Happy Pak Day to My Pak..

Words can't describe how much i lurve u thou i don show it..

U are the Bestest Pak in this whole universe..

I hope i will find a man who is like you..

Soft-hearted, Thrifty , Loving..ANd (most important)U never lay a hand on us..

I'm(my siblings 2)Lucky 2 have such Pak..

Celebrating Happy Pak Day..We strolled at esplanade eating Ahpek Ice-cream.. Window Shopping at Marina Square..B4 heading 2 Beach Road 2 Have our dinner of Sup Tulang , Satay And Rojak ,Mee Kuay Tioa Goreng , Nasi Goreng And Nasi Ayam..Wif Blended Lychess..Yummy!

The Adik-Beradik

The Pressie

It's No Crocodile tears

2006-06-18T01:51:00.000+08:00

It's been a very Happening "Moment" 2 me this week..A lot has revolves around me..Hapiness , Loneliness , Sadness , Triumph..
I felt guilty..I should have faith and be calm..Instead i went into a frenzy..
Who Wouldn't?When u lost ur precious Belonging..U will be lyke a blind man leading 2 nowhere..
I lost my deary wallet..I cried..Yes!I shed tears the moment i found out my wallet was missing , during i was serving my customer..I had 2 put up a front.. But in my head i was trying 2 remember where was the last tyme i had my wallet with..I pounced after the customer had purchased it..I was practically running , seeking my precious wallet..I searched high and low..nitpicking..
Juz lyke looking 4 a needle in a haystack..It was depressing..But Life have 2 move on..With bloodshot eyes , I went back 2 the salesfloor , looking dazed..
I was sniffling..I couldn't concentrate..I told myself 2dae it would be self-service dae..I cried becoz There is not a single honest soul came up and reunited e wallet 2 me..I was appalled..Becoz i would return it Back 2 the owner..As we live in this modern world..Ppl 4get bout integrity..Its a pity..
B4 dat incident..I was strolling with Makcik shopping at MustaFfa Centre..
I was looking 4ward 4 it..I went 2 get my Palettes of colours..
5 blushers , 20 glosses and 30 eyeshadow..With this , i could practise my make-up skill on my sister..I will make them look lyke goddess , Sweet-gerl-next-door Or Au Naturel.. Then b4 proceeding 2 Bugis 2 get the bag i was eyeing 4 almost 2 months(A very nong nong time ago)I saved it and I'm proud of it as i earned it..We had our early dinner at Komalas..
Then took a ride in SMRT..Otw..A gerl was "abandoned"by a her mom..She is such a brave girl..She did not cry at all.. Sadly..Nobody came 2 her rescue..Again i was appalled..Nobody reacted 2 her misfortune..Makcik and I consoled her..Whether she wants 2 call he mom on our cellphone or we accompanied her till her mom came down..She shook her and did not want us 2 follow her..I felt guilty coz i left her all alone coz she was against the idea..(Don't talk 2 strangers)..I hope she has been reconciled in her mom arms again..

Sick & Sickening

2006-06-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

Its sickening being sick..It really sucks!I cant stand my splitting headache and my brown-phlegm Cough..Eeeewww..Last month i fell sick..Now i fell sick again on tuesdae n again 2dae but This tyme follow-up wif an infection in my left ear..Nasib baik tak torek..
Haiz..I was given a eardrop..It was damn painful when i squeeze in e droplet..I cant stand when It slipped into my ears..The coz of my infection were due of my sickness..I have yet 2 cure myself from my last tue fever..Thats why the germs spread itself 2 my ear..And i suffer Brochitis(ermm..I tink dats e spelling)from this..For an instance;do u noe that taking medicines is such a chore?I'm Not apill person..Truthfully i can't swallow any tablet and capsule forms..
I will soak it in a spoon;then stare and smell at it thou it contain some lead b4 gulping it down..Yucko!I have 2 take my antibiotics 4 my infections..Gawd!
I felt like puking all out,as soon as it enter my mouth i downed mugs of water.. still it cant get rid of e bitter taste!!Eewww..But thanx 2 my cough syrup,Im able 2 breathe again..Unfortunately i got 8 more pills 2 go..Torture!!

06.06.06(where my hopes came crushing down)

2006-06-07T16:48:00.000+08:00

Why ppl alwaes put their hopes up high, touching e sky for something they really wanted or dream off But it alwaes hurt them like a million pieces of glasses crashing 2 e floor??

It alwaes happen 2 me..The Past N Now..I already can see e future dat i will again be disappointed..
I alwaes nvr have my dreams coming true..I'm alwaes be the one who will get hurt..Whatever i asked 4..The answer will be NO!
Is this what ppl say..
"A Blessing In Disguise"??
Everytime it happened,I will feel useless , a Failure N hopeless..
Am i born in this world juz 2 face discrimination from e public??
Or am i jinx?!

I noe it's sinful of me, As a muslim i muz be thankful 2 Allah 4 giving me e opportunity 2 live in this werld..
But i juz cant stand it anymore..Watching ppl achieved their dreams..
When im being left alone from e ceremony..

Whats With the rowdy Behaviour??

2006-06-04T17:26:00.000+08:00

Ouhk..b4 u jumped 2 conclusion..Im did not encountered wif any drunkards..
I met a new breed of ppl..
On fridae..I was invited 2 be the tour-guide for our guest..The NIE teachers..
As usual,It was disorganised..They called me at the 11th hour..It was soo last min..I was damn annoyed..I had 2 cancel some meeting due 2 this "commitment"..So..i was ready 2 meet this ppl..I was suprised actually..
Seeing the "Teachers"..They dont look like One!Seriously..They wore clothing which is soo informal..They may not be attending any seminar or watever..
Seriously..where is the Professionalism..??
I was assigned 2 guides 2 group from 9.30-11.30am..The 1st group were a buch of mundane ppl..Yeah..I did have a little mingling with them but they prefered sticking 2 their own..But the 2nd group was loud!I was laughing my ass off..They are really a bunch of cuckoos..Asking indirect qns..And this male teacher is Hilarious!I cant believed he is a teacher..A Primary School Teacher!This What happened:I was 2 guide Group O teachers..They were given tags 2 easily be identified..He was lyke "where should i pinned this??"
And he practically put on his nipples..This Teacher is sure one "open-minded"teacher but i cant imagine how he gonna interact wif small kids..
Morever..This guiding really do me good..Haha..We were able 2 step in Rooms dat i cant entered such as the"MicroBiology Lab"(Biochemical Student),
Experience ITE Centre,Beauty Therary Centre..I was astonished..I was excited when i found out that i have the oppurtuinity 2 feel the atmosphere..
My gerlfriends will be jealous!Heehehe..I gonna story-telling them..

ATTENTION

2006-05-30T10:36:00.000+08:00

Hahahahahahah..Im going 2 laugh it out loud..
I don care wat u wanna say..As long as u r Happy!
So JUVENILE!!!And im going 2 say it again..J.U.V.E.N.I.L.E!!!!!!!
Such childish character!Kalau dah anak Abu 2 dah sah2 anak abu..
Im baffled wif this kind of species..Haiz..
Takpelarh..Kalua dilayan sgt nti..Melebih2..Lebih gula dari Garam..Kakakakakakak
ATTENTION!!!!
This is my Blog!I hv e rite 2 post watever i want!
NOBODY!I repeat NOBODY!
Can stop me from writing watever i want!
So if u r Unhappy wif me!Get Lost!

An afternoon with the chatterbox

2006-05-28T22:41:00.000+08:00

Its Been Sometimes since we meet..The Last tyme we met was Last Year Hari Raya Outing..Meet Ms Becokxx..My 1 oF mY GoodFriend From The Express Stream..Remarkblely we have been friends since Sec One..We were in e same"House"..Blue Colour(Dolphins) which alwaes won 2nd Place..Supposely Ytd Met CT And Liy(Another CloseFriend from e express stream) But Liy Could Not make it..So only e Both Of us..
The Picchas Tells u e whole Story..

Beautiful Ppl

Help me!!She Poked my chubby cheeks..

I wanna Lick Lick from ur Brim to Ur Bottom..Yummy..Black forest..

We Cant Get Enuf Of OursElves..Hehe..

My Next Advertisement Promoting Coffee Bean Drinks..

It's The Entrance

2006-05-26T00:57:00.000+08:00

Its The End..The Phrase they Linked it wif ITE..Truthfully..I despise ITE..Eversince i went 2 Upper-Sec and where The Teachers will alwaes Emphasize on"U all don want 2 get stuck in ITE wif only a Certificate Instead of a Diploma Rite??U will nvr find a good-paying job if u r in ITE.."
See..How influential..
So..That start my mission 2 be In polytecnic..And how i hate ITE..
Yesh..I looked down on ITE students..They are a buch of Retards But I soon found out that im Only partially correct..
I want 2 show my parents that im capapble n able 2 make them proud..My mission was 2 get into Poly..When i was sitting 4 My 'N' Lvl paper,I was already making up my mind 2 enter the Business sector..Ive already chosen the skewl and the courses i wanted 2 enrolled in..
Singapore Polytecnic..Ist poly in Singapore..
My ain was 2 be in Business Administration Or Media Communication..
I had my mind on it..concentrating..But Luck did not Side on me..
I was devastated..I knew i've flunked e most important subject..English!
My Ist Paper was english and i was Nervous,I could not concentrate..I was shivering when i was doing my composition which is my strong point..Even my EngLish Teacher(Is it Mrs Lee OR Mdm Lee OR is dat even her name)
Complimented me dat my strong point in English more 2 Composition..Im good at Describing..I kept it in mind till e day i took my 'O' Englsih..Suddenly everything became blank..Of coz..I was struggling 2 start e paper..I was upset as i knew dat i could not make..But i hv this belive deep in my heart i can make it.. God Knows..Its A Blessing in Disguise..It was nerve-wrecking the whole awaited tyme..I juz could not bear 2 describe how was it..Straight 2 the point..
I get my result slip,i faced it downwards..Beside that i could hear a cry of Happiness and a grown of sadness..In count of 3..I flipped it And there...
D7 in english..I was shocked..I cant uttered a word..My hopes were dashed..My dreams were crashed..As i learned dat my future is going 2 be Bleak..I was disappointed..I cant faced my friends who were jumping wif joy..I told them straight away im going 2 ITE..I was restless the whole months during the JAE.. Sadly..I oversees dat info-comm sent me Tons of letters wanting 2 be their Student..I was devastated..I was deep in sadness that i did not realise it..So when i optioned in the JAE..I juz ticked all ITE courses starting with ITE Clementi:Higher Nitec in Business Technology..Btw..I scored a 22pts..Which i can enrolled myself in most of info-comm and engineering courses..BUT I want 2 be in Business!!..
I began my life in ITE..I appealed 2 be in ITE college East(Simei)..Actually i gotten my 1st choice BUT i did not want 2 waste my life again..I had 2 travel a long distance..So..I was deciding between..Higher Nitec in BiOchemical And Higher Nitec in Integrated Logistic Management..I knew Logistic is about Cargoes ANd SHipyard ANd Dusty Warehouse..I don wanna do a Mens' Job.. Men Still don get it..Wearing the Uniform ANd has 2 carry Boxes..
Unglamorous!I want 2 hv my own desk where i can decorate it flowers and picture frames and cute stuff and Wearing a crisp Mango Suit..Looking Professional..But at the same tyme i Loathe Science But I loves Chemistry..I dislike Physics..The Customer Service was inpatiently waiting 4 me 2 decide.. I can feel her glared..I clicked On Higher Nitec In Integrated Logistic Mgmt..
I guessed i juz take whatever in front of me..And i was accepted..I began my near adulthood life here in ITE Simei..
I lyke It!I become a class-treasurer And A Bridge Leader..I joined Drama,Photography ANd Fashion and Glamour Club..Its an experience in my life..I had alot of things 2 learn N ITE offer alot of Stuff..Now im in my 2nd Year..I enjoyed every moment of it..Im Proud 2 be in ITE..I applaused Students in ITE who comes home with a trophy in Hand Such as the "Lee Kuan Yew" Award..It makes my dream and future more brighter..

Now why i noe i cant continue it

2006-05-24T14:39:00.000+08:00

"ZZZzzzzzZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz"@-@

no mood

2006-05-18T15:50:00.000+08:00

-4get it-

Non-stop hits

2006-05-17T17:55:00.000+08:00

Bezfwen Soon has One,Makcik Gonna has One,Nani Already has One,Liana N CT Long tyme own One,Fyqa N Emilyn also has One..Am i abnormal??
Sometimes i wonder where i go wrong??Its very frustrating when u r being left out becoz u Dont own One..They alwaes reassure me dat Someday i might own one..Its juz not e right tyme yet 2 have One..Easy said than done..Do u even noe what im talking bout??Yeah..Its called being in Lurve..
Where in friendster profile u signed as in a relationship..
Or when ppl asked bout ur status..u teasingly answer:Single But UnAvailable..
Its pressurizing when u r surrounded by lovey-dovey ppl..Seriously i do feel disgusted when they hv their conversation in front of me..Cooing N giggling..
The Green-eyed Monster really hit me hard..Im soo Envied..
Then during Gfs Outing..the only conversation dat we will have non other than..
their Bfs OR Improving realtionship OR ..Blahblahblah..
Its sickening..Yes!i understand n i sometimes joined in e talk as i don wanna become e spoiltsport..BUT they also muz understand me..Im in a very vulnerable positions..Ohk!Two muz play apart..U don expect me 2 stare into ur faces as i don understand wat u ~~guys~~ Gerls talking about..
So puhlez i hope 4 ur understanding..
*************
If u remember..last 2 weeks,in Suria Persada seni..A commercial break bout 3mins..They showed the hyrul's Gathering..And if u focused or concentrating on it..u would see a gerl in Purple posing wif him..And if u realise..The gerl is me!!
Goodness..On National Teevee..Yes..im not e only one BUT Im soo embarrassed, For One week i was e victim of teasing..
When..Nyai came down visiting she was practically..
"Wah bkn main agi cucu montel aku nie..Posing btol..Amik autograf..,
Nyai pon suker dier suara dier sedap..ader gmbr dier?"
Eat ur hearts out!My Nyai lurve Hyrul also..Nyerhaha..
Told u My Nyai got good taste in Man..Dats why she marry my Yai..hehe..
Then..during 1st dae of skewl..Fyqa N Adha was practically..
"Kau tau tak ader bdk 2 masok..Mcm kenal ajer..Siap posing.."
I smiled sheepishly..A week i was in e Top 3 list..So Soon all 4gotten till Ytd..
My dearest cuzzy N Friend(Shaiful N Hannan)from ITE angMokio who happen 2 be in e same skewl as Bro asked him whether im e gerl in e Teevee..My eyes bulged..
Why cant they let this matter rest?Let Bygones be Bygones..
Jgn larh dikenang hari yg lalu..
***************
Double indulgence..hehe..my mom baked hershey chocolate cake Yummy!!!
L8r 6.30pm got Aerobic Dance at CC..Gonna Hurry!!

Its juz a passing crush

2006-05-16T17:40:00.000+08:00

This past few daes..i had been listening the same songs over n over again..Everytime i switched on my MP3..THe songs dat were playing will be e same..I simply cant get bored wif it.. Sometimes i felt that it matched wif my mood while the other tyme i listened 2 it bcoz of e deep meaning..and sometimes i feel it juz did not make sense..haha..I noe wat u r tinking..u juz cant make out wat i say..But wat i noe..everytime i listened 2 dis song i will definitely feel my skins tingle..My heart beating faster n ill be in my lalala world..Not dat im building castle in e air..
Biarlah Rahsia - Siti NurHaliza
Bersamamu - Siti Sarah
Dealova - Once
Mungkir Bahagia - Hazami
Ajai & Nurul - Serasi Bersama
You give love a bad name - Atreyu
Promise - matchbook romance..
So if u happen 2 chanced upon dis songs..Beware!Who noes u might get addicted n if its contagious..it will spread lyke e SARS virus..Nyerhaha

Love is a thing of a past

2006-05-15T17:18:00.000+08:00

Love is a thing of the past.

You often hear people saying that love doesn't bring food on the table, it doesn't hold a roof over your head and it definitely doesn't guarantee you a lifetime of happiness.
Love is a word that gets thrown around so loosely these days. Do people really mean what they say?
I've had a person ask me, "Why is it so hard for you to say it?"
I haven't found the right answer for that question. To me, it's not a matter of saying it but rather who you are saying it to. I love my friends, I love my family and I love the challenges that life brings.
These are things that are already there, they are cast in stone.
However, I'd love for my family to be happy. For my friends to love me back. And I'd definitely love to triumph over life's challenges. These are things that I want above the love that I already have.
You can say that I'm never contented. I think I am too. I can't remember the last time I was, and I don't want to be.
People tell me I've got life going for me. It's not that anything is missing at this present moment. I've gotten what I hoped for, perhaps even more than what my plate can hold. Who am I to complain?
I gave up trying to be less mean to people, to be less bitchy, to be less demanding. I gave up trying because I know that I can't be all those things.
When I do talk to my friends, they stop and listen to me. Some of them wonder where the skepticism is coming from. My life couldn't be that traumatic. I never said it was. I've had great times, fell in and out of love (I think) and met wonderful people along the way. But I've been through things that others my age only learn from watching re-enacted dramas.
I go to school just like the rest, I attend the same classes to learn the same things, but how come I'm not entitled to the same kind of happiness they have. I get envious now and then but I tend to shrug off the feeling by thinking less of others.
Envy is a really bad feeling. It makes one sad and sometime brings tears.
My priorities have changed. Family is first, education is necessary and love is a bonus. A close friend said to me, "You just don't go around looking for it."
I agree. If it happens, it happens. If it doesn't, then it's just not meant to be.
People lose hope not because they didn't find the light at the end of the tunnel. They lose hope because they gave up walking towards it.
**I found this post during i bloghopping..it really touched my heart..Noeing dat im not alone in this situation..Love comes when u least expected it..
psst..thou it sounds cliche' trust me..it only comes when u don search 4 it..

Happy Mothers day!

2006-05-13T18:48:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated 2 someone special in my while..Alwaes in my mind and dream..
She will alwaes be in my heart..I will not 4get all e sacrifices she has done 4 me..Insyallah..
Mak!Happy Mother Day!!Please 4give me e heartache i had done 2 u from e day of Last Year of Mothers' Day till eve of 2006 Mothers' Day..I noe i had make u cry,make u fumed wif my antics..Im really sorry Mak 4 e things i had done 2 u..
Nothing can replace ur love 2 me nor it can replace my love 4 u..
U will alwaes be my Mak now,Tml and forever N ever..Im afraid 2 lose u as im depended on you.. My Life is in Ur Hands N also Allah..If u r 2 leave me..May i Beg..2 be taken my life 1st as i could not live without u..Wif every beating heart and pulsating pulse u will alwaes be in my soul..
No words can describe e pain u go through giving birth 2 me and taking care of me during my falls..And alwaes being there 4 me thou i don ask 4 it..
Mak..i wanna wish u Happy Mother's Day!!!

Suwei

2006-05-13T18:29:00.000+08:00

Its been some tyme since i updated my blog..i do have e tyme but the prob is,Upon typing i 4gotten all e things dat i wanna pen down..Its irritating coz it will be in my head in perfect english wif adjectives and nouns..ill be all excited 2 type it down..Then..*Pooh!It vanish in thin air..
But ill hv yet 2 4get bout ytd!!!
It was embarrasing..Humiliating i might say!!!
All this while i was strolling confidently..did not feel uncomfortable..
My pants had a hole!!!!!I was so freaking shocked..What e hell..
How worse can it be?!I was starting my 1st dae of menses!!!!!!!!!Arrrggggghh!!!!
To-toally suwei!And i was not wearing any pantyliner ytd!!!I was in a hurry 2 get 2 werk..
Well u noe me..Wakaka..A certified late-comer..
Back 2 subject..I was wondering all dis while did e mens' saw aniting?
u noe ytd was Fridae prayer n yeah i went out during e finishing of fridae prayers..
Ouh..Im praying hard dat they were not laughing all e wae 2 home...Waaaa!!!!

V for Virginity

2006-05-09T10:55:00.000+08:00

My weekends were a bore..But an afternoon b4 weekends i had a marvellous tyme..Head-Banging,Knuckles-knocking and face-scrunching..It was better than an orgasm..Wakakaka..
Free upsize and a free burger wat more can we asked 4?We have 2 protect the identity of our victim or we will charge under section 31..Wakakaka..
We were learning bout e birds n bees..
And im proud 2 annouce im a virgin!
While Mark declared he is a virgin While Nani did not oath anithing..
Under 18 are not meant 2 hear our conversation it is rated R-21..
It was exciting..nyerhahaha..
Luckily no practical!

The book of all answers

2006-05-03T17:26:00.000+08:00

Right after BL yesterdae..I went home,get changed and went out 2 meet Makcik..Accompanied her 2 buy her pump shoes..So we juz strolled ard TM n Century SQ..We went 2 TIMES 2 have a Free update on the magazine..As we were browsing i came across e self-improvement section n i chanced upon a book called "A book of All Answers"I was dumbfounded as i flipped thru e pages coz it comprised of a sentence..So i read e back page..Hmm..Interesting..
It said dat if u are in need of an unsolve problem u may try ur luck in finding ur answers in dis book..But there are a few instruction 2 be taken so dat it will be effective..So out of curiosity i try..hope it did not kill me -....-
The Instructions are ~
1.In a sitting position hold e book in ur palm where e back of ur hand is resting on ur lap..
( While i standing and holding e book in my open palms..)
2.its better off if e place is quiet so that u can concentrate on e question u intrigued..
(While i was in e middle of a noisy store..trying 2 concentrate on e qn n psychic makcik not 2 disturb me..)
3.Then close ur eyes and visualise e qn whilst ur finger trace e outer pages..
(While i in my deep thought-psychic Makcik not 2 come over n disturb me..)
4.If u throughly ready u can put a finger in e page as u r tracing and the answer is there 4 u..)
(While i still in deep cocentration put my finger in between e pages..)
and i get e answer ~
If u do What u are told...
What the Fark!!!I was Baffled..
Hmm..I repeated the ans again n again..If u do wat u r told..
The Thing dat i was told 2 do is 2 FORGET BOUT HIM..
Hmm..so if i don think bout him he will lyke me??Wakakaka!!
Yeah rite..Duh..What sholud i do??I really lyke him alot but i alwaes look him from afar..Its in my character..Im not some brave chicks who can face rejections..If Bezfwen here..She would be screeching at me..She is one brave chick..She's not shy talking 2 e opposite sex..She only repaet e same sentence.. "Gerl dis is e 21st century,Guys like it if Gerls make e 1st move"
Easier said then done..Trust me..I cannot bear 2 be face 2 face wif a guy..
I'll go stammering n Sweating lyke an asshole..Im such a chick-en..
I salute n respect those plusize gerls who confidently stand up 4 their flaws..
If The Book of All Answer is True..Hmm..Maybe try not 2 think bout him..
But still pondering bout him!!!!

Welcome Back!!

2006-05-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

cant believe in an hr i'll be back 2 skewl..Meet e freshies and start a new "year"..Yep im in my 2nd year now..And in less than 3mth i'll be 19..Gosh!Another year i'll be a BIG 2-0..Im going 2 be an adult soon..But im still a kid in e heart n sometimes i show it 2 much in ur face..Haha.. Im glad dat i got e oppurtunity 2 move on and wif this oppurtunity i will not led my life away.. I decided dat 4 dis semester im going 2 get all As..im going 2 concentrate on my studies..Pay attention 2 e subject thou e teacher sucks! and No more skipping classes..I make sure that i pass my last exam wif flying colours..and get hold an attachment wif e highest pay..Im not going 2 make myself disappointed again n again..I hv 2 be true 2 myself..Im not going 2 lie 2 myself..
My future depends on This..And i Have 2 make sure i did it correctly..
But skewls not going 2 be e same again..As i now Makcik is not there 4 me..She did not able 2 continue her higher nitec..Alone again..But i have 2 learn 2 be independent..Friends u can find everywhere but only a few make an impact 2 ur life..I misz my Bezfwen n Makcik..They r a friend who stay wif me thru thick n thin..Who understand me as i understand them..From now onward i have 2 stand up strong..

A picture Captures Thousand memories

2006-04-30T18:16:00.000+08:00

Sorry 4 e late pictures....
Theres more photos following up..alot of activities in April...So little tyme 2 post..

During e High tea gathering.. 22/4

*Bagai pinang dibelah dua..(Sheessh perasan..haha)
Aint he kiut??:)

anugerah LIVE concert..

The End of concert..Posing tyme hehe..

*Hyrul Fans!!(xcept 4 e pink blouse she lurve azmir..(bleeeaarggghh)

StarFuck

2006-04-29T20:25:00.000+08:00

If u don lyke me tell me 2 my face..Don waste ur breath and ur stupid precious tyme..If u tink dat im not suitable 4 e job..Juz tell me as easy as ABC..Sorry we cant hire u as u don fit e criteria..Hmm..Singaporean.. gracious citizen who care 4 e feeling of other citizens..U gave me confidence dat im able 2 ace dis interview..
What e heck?!Im Pissed off man!It been couple of daes..im hunting 4 jobs but it was unsuccessful..Its tiring n disappointing..Being rejected countless time..So i juz try my luck again..I really need e job..Where on earth i get e money if im not working?I don resort in asking Money from my parent..Yes!Im not married n im still a student..But im learning 2 be independent..Till when??I wanna stay under my parents' armpit??Im the elders n i should show my siblings dat we cant always hang on 2 our parents..So if u guys got any lobang..Plz do IM me..Im desperate!!!

Skinners

2006-04-27T13:41:00.000+08:00

New Skins Again!!Weeeeehhhheeee..Been working 4 e past couple of daes..
If my eyes become diverted(Oh No!)coz 2 much of scrutinising e intricate n elaborate html..Well wat can i say??It turns out beautifully..Im so proud..
All my sweats n pain i been agonising...its been fulfilling..Hope u guys enjoy it..
:)

Changes

2006-04-26T17:55:00.000+08:00

Let us rest n enjoy 4 e next few daes..Is it difficult 2 understand??Aiyoh..
Had 2 undergo BL training ytd..I was really not in e mood coz im still in holidae mood!!I as usual late as ever..haha but not as late as the Queen of latecoming..
Nani!!!!She was 30 mis late while i was 20 mins..And poor Mark had 2 wait 4 us 35mins..Kwang3..Sorry dear..Not purposely..its my nature..Ouh Yeah Mark..
If u read dis..U looked Good..Hmm..i scrutinised n i did saw something different..Is it ur Hair??Or ur Goatee??Hehe..Ermm..Nani??Well she did not change at all..Still the sarcastic and unsound person..Kwang3..
So we were told 2 get ready 4 e new batch..Ouh No!N from dis very dae onwards..Im going 2 skewl alone..Makcik juz left me..Sadly she cant continue higher nitec..How am i going 2 survive w/o her..Im dependent on her as she is e 1st friend in ITE dat i really trust..She has been thru thick n thin wif me..
She is who i can call a friend..I dislike dis type of changes..It sucks!

Im free!

2006-04-24T00:43:00.000+08:00

Woohhoooo!!!Im free!!!Merdeka Merdeka!!!!Ive been released from e clutches of dictartorship..Kwang kwang kwang..I can breathe the fresh air..I can feel myself being alive again..N yeah..i cant get enuf of hyrul anuar..haha..Ive been watching his video lyke 3-4times per day..Especially e video of him singing..
His such a Gd-looking guy..Why cant ppl accept the fact dat he has e whole package??Goodness..I adore him..when he laugh it sounds juz lyke a baby cooing..Very "manja"..Im so mesmerise by him..Who will be e lucky gerl?Who able 2 captures his heart??I will go green wif envy 4 e gerl..Such fortunate one..
I tink she will not be e domineering type..Who is loving n understanding..is not possesive and share e same interest as him..Who noes how 2 play bowling..
Who is sensitive..Who loves Ct Nurhaliza..Who lykes 2 cook nasi goreng..Who loves malay cultural n performance art..
Hmm..e description sounds familiar..
It's ME!!!im e chosen one..Muahahaha..
Ehk..it doesnt hurt 2 fantasize rite?I noe who am i..
Lyke malay sayings"Bagai langit dan bumi"
But i don mind..im juz a fan who chases her idols around..N im having fun!

It was beyond my dreams

2006-04-22T12:18:00.000+08:00

Well wat can i say..My building castles in the air has become a reality..A history juz repeat itself..Hahaha..I joined hyrul's fanclub n entittled myself 2 his high tea..TODAE!
I was excited..jumpy all dae..even ytd i cant really sleep thinking bout it..Sadly..tyme would never wait 4 us and all e fun passed..His high tea is allocated in e middle of pasir ris bungalow..
But b4 dat too many halangan n cobaan..hahaha..We were supposed 2 be there at 5pm but Yati(my new foundfriend of hyrul's fan) was stuck in a seminar and in the jam..I was getting fidgety and losing my patience as i'll had been waiting 4 her at the pasir ris mrt for almost 30mins..
I was so nervous dat i kept going 2 e toilet 5 times..And i hv dis claustrophobic(phobia of 2 many ppl and enclose area)When we reached dat luckily 4 us we're not late but the atmosphere was a bit tense..I was sweating lyke a pig..I was so paiseh..Haha i was as usual feeling self-conscious..
We had 2 register n signed on his guestbook..and made our way independently around e bungalow..Let me describe..it was huge..humongous..Purely opaque..Lovely..No swimming pool..
It was something out of home decor magazine..haha..My dream home..The different was e interior was scarcely furnitured..But e design..it looked country 2 me..
Well..i was intrigued wif e surroundings..Ouh..n i read Mr Good-looking blog n he said dat e high-tea will end at 7pm Sharp..But i tink it extended as myself went home at 8pm..
Yeah..the place was packed Full House!Wak Kerak(http://artismelayu.blogspot.com)
U should see 4 urself then u make ur own predictment if hyrul's has e future in the music industry..Im so proud of you, hyrul..Did i mention 2 u dat this is e 1st tyme dat im soo crazy in lurve wif a star..????haha..Anywae e show was postponed till 6.15pm coz e starkarat(Suriachannel) wanted 2 make e coverage of dis high-tea..I hoped dat my ugly face wont be shown in e TeeVee..Arrgghhh!!!Hmm..did i tell u dat i had a nice/clear view of Hyrul??Hahaha..I was delirious when i sat closely 2 e stage..He was infront of me all e wae..I was having a great tyme snapping shots of him n taking e video..He sang e wonders of all song Pertama..I was mesmerized..Then it was autograph session..Yati n me was some of e 1st few..My heart was thumping..This is where e history repeats itself..Haha..It was lyke in fantasyland..I gave him e gift..the adidas perfume it smelled masculine but not as strong..
In e card i wrote 2 him was"May ur life journey be as sweet n exciting as the smell of perfume"
Sweet rite??Hehe..I guessed he still remember me coz when i told him my name he spelled it as JANA but i made him 2 spelt e rite JANNAH..N i get 2 shake his hand!!!Weehhheeee!!
Im over e moon...haha..Well wat happen after dis were a few shots of him from far away..shot wif his cuzzy arwen n eavesdropping wats next n having 2 leave early coz Yati BF was waiting 4 her..n i did not want 2 embarrased myself being there alone yet still wanna see more of him had 2 leave 2..Haiz..takpe..And all e way home i kept watching his video and scrutinisng my pic wif him..I had a blast and yeah his cuzzies are all eyecandy..hehe..pweetty n gd-looking..
Did i mention dat his bro in live was damn hensem??Hehe..

am i dissapointed

2006-04-21T13:15:00.000+08:00

Am i dissapointed..Haiz..my exam result is out n my GPA was bleeaargghh..
I score a 2.7..1 A n 2 C...Damn it!I got 2 Cs!!!Ok i confessed dat i was not so serious in dis semester but it was disbelieving..i should not wait at e eleventh hour..Im regretful..My result was disheartening..I aim 4 all Bs..Yesh..im thankful i got an A but if there is Bs instead of Cs wont u jumped n touched e ceiling?..Last semester i scored 3 Bs wif a GPA of 3.13..If it going 2 decrease my future will be bleak..Have 2 say gd bye 2 Polytecnic..I want my future 2 be bright..2 live a comfortable life..From now onwards..Im going 2 try my best not 2 be a PROCRASTINATOR..I wont promise but i CHOOSE 2 be Someone who treasure e time..
Be proactive!

Fuh..a change of skins

2006-04-19T17:04:00.000+08:00

Im so proud of myself..
After hours of "looking 4 a needle in a haystack"
Im sastified wif the result..
Now i can heaved a loud sigh.....
"aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh"
Pretty..Nice..I lYke!!

another reason 4 being excited!!

2006-04-17T20:43:00.000+08:00

Yiiipee!!!!!!Weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!Hoooraayyyy!!
Im so excited..happy giler!!!Im invited 2 attend hyrul's high tea!!
It was beyond my dreams!!Gonna meet Mr G00d-Looking!!
Im gonna count the hours,daes,mins&sec..hehe..
Gonna doll up 4 e occasion..I hope it will turn up well..hehe..
i wanna take pics with him dozens of tyme..I only hope dat i would not feel shy coz there will be gerls who are so fanatic and they will push & pull u away lyke wat happened during TAA..
Fuuhhh..
anD i would lyke 2 thank my dear friends n oso kak fau 4 believing in me..Im so touched by ur gestures..Again im so thankful 2 u guys..hearts u alot...

The perks of life

2006-04-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

Having lotsa fun..My lil sis 11th bdae party..Then SURIA LIVE anugearh concert..Then..
sleepover&BBq 2 Changi Beach wif my cuzzies family..It made me 4get almost all my woes..
Three long daes which had been eaten by the time bug..and it moved way 2 fast..I enjoy every seconds of it..
Singing bdae song 4 her..Screaming @ e top of my lungs and being almost deaf coz by the anugerah boys fanatics..Swimming and get stung by jellyfish!Yeeoouucchh!!
I will update and elaborate more on my 3 daes..As 4 now im running out of tyme..
Wish me luck tml..haiz..Dreading going 2 work..help!!!

Life is full of ups and downs

2006-04-11T23:20:00.000+08:00

Juz looking at the title u guys muz be thinking am i having a hard time?..
Yeah..I am..It is full of spaces,Comas,exclaimation marks,Question Mark BUT NO fullstops..
If this continues i will be going bonkers and u guys will be visiting me in woodbridge!Hahaha..
Im not ashamed of it if i tell u guys the whole story..Ok..make it short and sweet ehk..
Lets juz begin and end with........
I was accused of stealing!!!
And im not afraid 2 say and shout I DO NOT!!
Seperti pepatah melayu..Berani kerana Benar Takut Kerana Salah..
Thou they dragged me all the wae 2 the NPP..i will still give them the same statement..
As u can see 4 urself im not embarrass 2 confess my too personal life..Bcoz i did NOTHING!
Im clean..
Eversince ive been werking at the pressurizing store 7-11 n a store and more..
Ive been having insomnia and nightmares..
U ask me why??
The supervisor is from Hell!!!Her tempered is following her around..
Ive been the victim eversince the 1st dae of werk..She been terrorising me emotionally and psychologically..Every single dae i come 2 werk..Ive been shouted and screamed at..
Sometimes i wonder what i did wrong??She alwaes pounce on me and i will be looking over my shoulders..
Everytime going 2 werk..i will be cringing all the wae..Its giving me headache..Im juz afraid one fine dae i lost every ounce of energy and started strangling her..
I don have any intentions or niat 2 hurt her..
But she hurt me!!!!Not physically but emotionally!!!
Im in pain..Thou story-telling wif my mom..She will never understand how im feeling..
The Horrendous feeling of being bullied...Being called names and interogated as a criminal..
Hello!!!Im a human Being!!!I have Feelings!!!
She is a TOTAL monster!!Heartless and Cruel!!!!!
Ya Allah..Bantulah Hambamu ini..Kau MAHA mendengar lagi MAHA mengetahui isi hatiku..
Jauhilah aku dari segala kejahatan,Hasad dengki dan iri hati..
Aku mencari rezeki yg Halal..
Ya Allah..Ya Tuhanku..Lindungilah aku..Amin..

Untitle

2006-04-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

Change my skins..Simplicity is the best..If in the next 3 daes it did not appear..Lets juz hum and wait coz it alwaes happen everytime i change my skins..It took nearly 5 daes..Im NO kidding..
Hahaha..and i still lack the skill 2 resize my photos..So i cannot post the pictures,,Its such a waste as i am cant show my talent in capturing life..Huhu..So let the force be with me..
Muuaaakkzzz***

Photos all in one

2006-03-31T23:48:00.000+08:00

Ppl the pics i promise is all-in-one as u can see at the side..
My mom photo in black&white..
My 2004 prom pic..
My ONLY baby passport photo..hehe..
Then..The photos of the gaya sihat last sun..I tink every week i hv 2 change e photos..
Ouh..btw..i cant get hyrul ONLY photo coz he is alwaes surrounded by fans & "security"Merbukplatoon crew...hahaha..
So i juz post fauzie ALONE picture..
EnJoy!!!

Stuff been happening around

2006-03-31T23:24:00.000+08:00

The following are stuff that been happening 4 the past few daes:
Last Sundae:Went 2 Gaya Hidup sihat..Met Mr Goodlooking & Mr Nice Guy..C Anuar Zain 1m away as i was 2 shy 2 walk up 2 the front of the stage..Not 4getting e ever beautiful doll-lyke Rima Melati Adams..Thou wif not as-thick-as-a-concrete make-up..She Still look pretty as ever..I lyke her better off-screen..Took alot of their pictures but i only wanna show u guys the 4 best pic i snapped..
Monday and Fridae(Juz now):Sat 4 my final exam..FDM n WIM.. freaking difficult!I hope i can make it..
Now...Party Time!!!!1 month of sloth..but im such a responsible citizen.. I need 2 earn money work at 7-11 a store n more..HooRayyy!!!
It is totally otherwise..I hv 2 tolerate wif customers' NON-STOP demand..S'porean still have yet noe what's e meaning of QUEUEING!!!!
Sometimes i really wanna strangle them..Dont they hv a bit of courtesy and respect 4 service ppl lyke me??We are also human being NOT Robot where u can push around..We also hv feelings...Such as Being tired..
U don hv 2 be rude and started complaining..If u hate us so much then go buy stuff at other places larh!!!Adoi!!!
Mondae:My mom n Bro Cleaned our home and make they turned upside-down as it..The living room looks 10 years younger..It is a fresh change..I hope the layout brings gd-luck..
Btw..During the midst of cleaning..They found some precious pictures such as baby pictures of me that i did not noe exist..And my Mom is actually a Beauty pangeat Queen!!*Gasped*I knew she joined the pageant BUT i did notnoe she was alwaes the Top3!I was shock!And also Jeles!!It was unbelievable..
My mother reserved person was a Beauty Queen..
Her pictures when she was 17,19 and the early adulthood years..
Well..I wanna elaborate more up way 2 the sky..BUT its not simply my Fault..but my dear father is now nagging at me as the electrical bill is shooting
I only once in a while i log in..MY siblings more!
A week there will lyke playing 2-3times..
Sometimes..I wanna cry..Doesnt mean im the eldest..
He expect me 2 act all responsible..Everyone has 2 play a part..Its Agonising noeing im alwaes the target..I beg 2 differ..
I don wanna talk about it..It make me more sad..
Enjoy the pics..
There is more 2 come..
Arrggghhhhh!!!!!!I cannot post e pix!!!Damn it!!!!

Given A Choice..

2006-03-29T11:33:00.000+08:00

What Will I choose?
1) Mom OR Dad
Ans:Mom

2)Washing dishes OR Doing Laudry
Ans:Doing Laundry

3)Boyfriend OR Bestfriend
Ans:Must i choose??I lurve them both...

4)Money OR Fame
Ans:Fame..coz wif fame comes money..teehee

5)Chendol Or Ice Kacang
Ans:Chendol

6)Hyrul Anuar OR Taufik Batisah
Ans:Hyrul Anuar =P

7)Brad Pitt OR Tom Cruise
Ans:Uggghhh..Yucks!I Lyke Tom Welling

8)Acting OR Hosting OR Dancing OR Singing
Ans:Hmm..I lyke 2 plz..Hosting N Dancing

9)A guy who is..Good Looks,No Money But Pleasant Personality OR
NO looks But Tons of Money With Pleasant Personality OR Good Looks,
Tons of Money But Farking Personality
Ans:NO looks But Tons of Money With Pleasant Personality

10)Wasting Time or Nothing 2 do??
Ans:Im crapping so im doing both

Toddles~

Putting weights on my shoulder

2006-03-24T16:14:00.000+08:00

Having a splitting headache..i cant think properly wat 2 rite down..
Arrrggghhhh!!!!!I hv yet 2 start my revision...Exams in 3 more daes!!
Actually i wanna elaborate more about my new job at 7-11..
and also my new found hobby..Briskwalking!!!
But i juz could not find words 2 describe it..
Ouh..wait till i get better..Smackz!

Feeling Exhausted Again

2006-03-23T16:27:00.000+08:00

The Title should be "Feeling Rejuvenated" BUT after bloghopping im exhausted yet again..
I bloghopped none other than the ardent fans of the Anugerah Boys..I was overly jealous and envied with what they post on their blog..I knew that last few daes.."Teman Anugerahku" had a shooting at Tampines East CC..As usual Im not able 2 go..Mcm2 dugaan n tentangan..
Aniwae..as usual the Fans had a blast of time after the shooting..They hung around them,took picture,Have a meaningful talk..Wana the gerl i met thru TAA..She and her fiknatics Friends are ALWAES the lucky sorts..They ALWAES meet them upclose n personally..I think Anugerah Boys also know them by their name..Wana get 2 hold Hyrul's Bag and wear his shade..
How lucky can they be??I mean they also must have their contact number rite?Haiz..
How i wish i can be lyke them..They get 2 see the Boys funny side..Joke with them personally..
Its Frustrating..........................................................................................................................................
Haha(Im trying 2 smile despite the "thingy")
Im hvnt had any shower since yesterdae 10pm b4 i went 2 werk..(eekkss!!But i did not smell k)
Suprise!!!I juz started werking at 7-11 A store and More!
It was my 1st experince staying up late till in the morning..I had a throbbing headache after my 1st dae that was on Tuesdae..I werk from 11pm-7pm..I was exhausted..I cant wait 2 get home.. My comfy bed kept beckoning 2 me..
Uhouh..I tink i need 2 sleep again..My bed is beckoning 2 me again..

Time passed so fast

2006-03-19T12:43:00.000+08:00

Huhu..been some tyme since i updated my post..My week had been such a Fark and a blessing.. Let's Recap!
*Little Bro=Pain in the ass*
He made me cried silently wif his Farking attitude..
He called me "Siao Char Boa!"He should be the "Siao Tar Boa!!"
I was speechless when he suddenly called me that..
I was controlling my tears from rolling down..And!He embarrassed me infront of grandma who came down 2 visit us..It was shameful!!I tried not 2 kick him hard at his shin..
Im your sister..Where is my dignity when u called me that!!??
What has happen 2 him??He was as if been possessed by unseen forces..
He became agitated and alwaes raise his voice..
It was infuriating eversince we have the computer..It should be a fair share yet he alwaes
log in the computer everytime..Wasting the electricity bill..And becoz of him it had been a few time that our electrical had been cut off..He was full of denial..
"Ehk Not my fault,krg pon main com aper..Bapak tak byr....Yadayada"So many lame excuses..
He did not realise..I really wanna knock some senses in his Slow Brain..
And this past few daes he had been infront of the com almost everydae!
Morning,Afternoon,Night..A few hours every log in..
Why my parents give him faces???
It's sickening seeing him..I don wanna fight with him..But he alwaes take advantage of the situation..When we not at him..Switch!When there is no fantastic show on teevee..Switch!
He proclaimed dat he paid 1/4 of the bill but Habok pon tarak!!!Goodnes..!
NATO=no action Talk only..
I hope that B4 he enter ITE..He will become more mature and responsible for him and his Family..He is the only son..he have 2 upbring the family name..
I don want him 2 enter ITE and become rebellious..wores than this..I want him 2 become a trusted person and look upon 2..Insyallah..

*A Blessing for a while*
Its for me 2 noe and u 2 find out..
I had a blast when shopping..But it can be quite infuriating as it is difficult 2 find clothing of my size..=)
And im such a self-conscious gerl..Im afraid that the clothes im wearing is juz not pleasing 2 the publics' eye...
Yes!I have NO confident..It is True...I alwaes wear black..I did not noe how 2 wear colours..I think it make me more frampy..I only put on Accesories..Chunky beaded necklace and long dangling earrings..Thats All..Hahaha How Boring i am..
But now im being a bit adventurous..Coming out from my shell..Trying out bold colours..
Recently i bought 4 tops..Huhu..Its cheap!20 bucks all2gether..
I don wanna waste my money..Call me Cheapskate or Miser..I DON CARE!!!
Its comfort dat i look 4..Morever expensives clothes are diffucult 2 maintain..
I also rounded up some accesories 2 match my outfit..
It does look expensives after i wore it..hehe..I took some pictures of it!!!Yay!
Yeah..our Family 1st digital Camera bought 4 $399..Nikon Coolpix SL3..Nice!
It have such a cool cut..Movie with sound,Comes free with 512mb mmc,Mini tripod,Umbrella..
Im such a camwhore!

I DONT TOLERATE LATENESS!!!

2006-03-15T05:18:00.000+08:00

She was F***ing Late..It really gets on my nerve...I was pissed off..She did not reply 2 my msgs nor picked up the phone when i tried calling her..This was the 1st tyme i had 2 wait 4 someone 4 2HRS!!Goodness...Freaking Shit!!!I was so mad..She can still gleefully msg me.."Sorry,I got hold up,My result 4 the interview is not out yet"If she's not my Friend i would definitely left her stranded all alone..I was fuming..I nearly blew up my top..
My patience was wearing thin.."Aku nak Blah..Kau lambat arr."
I took out and left the library..Frowning..Thin lines forming on my forehand,Grim lips..
I think i do scare the hell of the public..As i walked past them..Rigid..
Damn it!At last she called me up..I guessed the msg does freak her out..She cant bear 2 be left alone..Wahahaha..I answered her coldly..I snapped at her and be so sarcastic..
"DAH kau lambat aku nak balik ok bye"Click..enganged..
I was already queueing 4 Bus 60..But my heart and my mind was debating whether should i give her the chance 2 redeem herself..
Only God noes that all this while i'll be tolerating her nonsense..alwaes coming late..
Its not lyke normal ppl where it usually 15mins..She was lyke half an hour late..
And i will alwaes end up being the one who wait 4 him..Its getting on my nerve..
I tried retaliating back by coming late sometimes..She was furious of coz..standing at the phonebooth our usual meeting place lyke a statue..
I told her off.."Mcm gitu arr perasaan aku biler kau SLALU dtg Lambat!!!"Kau ingat aku tak frust!!!FunFair ke??"
Sadly..it did not penetrate thru her mind...
*naz if u read dis post..plz be punctual...Mudah-mudahan allah membuka hatimu..amin..

Selamat Pengantin Baru

2006-03-14T03:19:00.000+08:00

**Kepada Kak Fauzana & Abang Farhat..Semoga anda berdua Hidup aman dan Bahagia..
Direstui Allah dan dikurniakan anak ramai..Panjang unur dan murah rezeki**

Kawaii ;p

2006-03-08T03:19:00.000+08:00

I want to extend my Thank-you 2:
Kak Era
My Cuzzies
My Bezfwen Asha
My GoodFwen Makcik Naz
My Mentoring Class OD
Nyonya selling Ice-cream in her cart
My Neighbour who live 7 doors away
Maryam
For Complimenting How Cute I am..
*Blush**Blush*
I went Red Yesterdae when Naz told me that Maryam Asked her 2 send her regards 2 me..
That im such a cut person..
Hmm..What is a Cute Person??
Im pondering why everywhere i go i will definitely be labeled Cute..
Not that Im Complaining larh But usually its more to Toddlers or kids age 10years below..
Im nineteen*Gasps*I juz let noe my age..hehe..
Im not Nine..
Do i skip and hop when i walk??
Or do i have a babyface...??
Thats what some People tell me..I look lyke im sixteen..
Im shock!I thought i look old..Ermm..Matured..hehe...
Im nearly an adult..Not a gerl..Not Yet a woman..
I want to be call as Pretty Lady..nyerhaha..
Sophisticated,Poise,Confident..
Truthfully..When i talk i do look like im Manja Larh..hehe..
Juz lyke this Singer in Malaysia..Ella Rocker..
I observed when she speak she will twirl her hair..Very soft-spoken..different from her image as a rocker..
But mind u!!!..Im not alwaes sugary-sweet..I do kick asses ok!!..Muahahaha
Fierce Me!!!!

Look Out..Tyra!!
SINGAPORE 1ST TOP PLUSIZE MODEL!

"Double Date"

2006-03-07T15:29:00.000+08:00

Ok..B4 u guys jump into conclusion and assumation..Im not dating anyone netherlessly meeting someone..Im doing a good deed by accompanying a friend..
*Breathe In*Hussein And I accompanied Fitri & Humairah..
Those 2 lovebirds..Uhh..actually they juz get 2 noe each other lyke 1 week ago..
As Fitri did not noe how 2 make this 1st move,He dragged us in and we hooked on his fishing line..He is alwaes making too fast move..he made Hum felt so intimidated by him..
Anywae..I was hoping 4 some fun and fabolous tyme..Eeek!!
It did not!Very disappointing..I understand if at 1st meeting..U all hiccupy and shy..But after a few hours u will loosen out rite??Well..It did not happen here..It was Damn Boring..
The Bird was flying all alone did not wanna 2 approach the Bee..While the Bee cant stop Buzzing on it's HP..The Flowers were getting quite tired off making the Two meet up..Alas we juz followed the flow..Wherever the wind blows..
Ouh..Yeah we catched the Final Destination 3...!!!!!
I really regret watching it..Too much Gore!!!
I was playing peek-a-boo with the screen..kept closing my eyes and covering them with my fingers..Hussein kept nudging me 2 freed my dear fingers from my eyes..
I missed alot of their acts..Hussein was right..I wasted my $9.50..
Should watch BIG MOMMA2!!!
Should go during weekdays!!!I can save $2.50 more!!!!Haiz...
After Embarrasing Myself inside the cinema..Outside Fitri & Hussein cant stopped teasing me..
During taking the MRT,Climbing the Escalator,Crossing the road..
Hmm..Im wondering what if in real life it really happen..???

***************MY Final Destination***************
I'm waiting Impatiently for bus 31 2 arrive..I'm already late its 5mins 2 10am..
I guess at the Tanah Merah MRT ,They will be lotsa of student..
I'm hoping during my boarding there are not many passengers..as im tired of standing like a statue..
Every bus comes and go..But the damn 31 still did not arrive..
My mind suddenly go astray..
Find Myself inside bus 31 doubledecker..Not many passengers..I'm sitting at the lowerdeck..
HeckCare with the above one..Including me there is 6 people..
The Bus is going smoothly when suddenly it jerk..But only once..
I assume evrything is ok as the driver did not check on it..
We are going 100km/h when Suddenly a flock of Crow fly through the windowpane..
The Driver try 2 avoid the birds..he steer to the left which colliding with an ongoing rubbish truck..And we find outself plunging 2 the left as the bus as it dropped on the road..
It was gruesome..people are flying..Blood gushing out..Head Crack!
The Bus then skidded to Tanah Merah Bustops almost instanly killing SIA newbies,Navy,
ITE College East MATrips & Minahs!!Muahahaha..Not 4getting Minah Tudung!!!
It was Mass Destruction!!!
Bodies lying around..Torsoes hanging from the MRT track..
Crows acting as Vultures Picking Dead Meat!!!
"WWOph!!Ouch!!!"
I come out from my day-dreaming..
I glare at the Big Fat Auntie who purposely step on my feet..Im cursing at her as there are enough walk space,she squeeze right in front of me..
When i heard the bus engine roaring..I decided 2 run after it but this BIG MOMMA is Standing infront of me..
Im making a fool of myself as i make a dash 4 the bus!!Alas it left me stranded!!!
But unknown 2 me..The vision that i had juz now is coming true..

A Mother's Love

2006-03-03T10:36:00.000+08:00

As i told u guys in my last post that im not feelin' dat good..
Yeah..its been nearly 3 daes..Been having Nauseous Feelin'
And Yesterday i did not sleep well..Kept sneezing and achoo-ing from "end of simple life till in the wee hours of 2 in the morning!"
I was restless tossing and turning on my bed..Goosebumps and coldPricks..
It was a horrible feelin'..
I knew dat i shud pay the doctor a visit but i hv not yet gotten my pay..
So u can guess that i did not hv enough money..
I hv 2 endure the sicky feelin..So i put my thoughts away from thinking 2 much of its presence..
I pretended that im not sick..
So..I was getting ready fer skewl..When my mom came home..
Im not embarrased 2 say dat shes werking the LateShift..Earning xtra income fer our family..
My Siblings and I really miss her very much as we did not get much time 2 spent wif her ..
As in the dae we are busy with skewl stuff while she at night she have 2 werk..
Or otherwise..
Guys be thankful and grateful that ur mom is alwaes there by ur side at night..
Waking in the middle of the nite 2 check on u..
Feeling irritated wif her endless yaking and nagging..
How i wish 2 be in ur place..
U are Bless 2 hv a Mom by ur side every single dae and nite..
As fer Me and my Sibling..Her Companion was her Advice 2 Keep praying at night..
Uhh..Back 2 me..
My mom Can read my mind..She said that she will accompanied me 2 the clinic..
I was touched ny her gestures..
Don get me wrong..Im already 19 and usually i will have 2 go alone 2 the cinic..
I jumped fer the chances as not alwaes i get 2 spent tyme wif my mommy dearest..
And Wat really spoilt the whole mood??
When my Medicines Bill is 40.95 Bucks!!!*Gasps*
My eyes nearly popped out when the cashier asked fer the money..
I was dissappointed as the money i can use 2 buy our daily neccesities..
But my mom coaxed me..Told me 2 take the medicine religiously..
Then she bought me New bra,New Sandals and new Blouse..
It was overwhelming...
My Mommy's love..

Unpleasant

2006-03-03T09:57:00.000+08:00

What shud i describe my experience at BL Amazing Race Sentosa??
"Shitty "Sucky "Stupid Sentosa..
How Bout my Feelin's??
IM FED UP!!!
FED UP!wif skewl endless disorganising..
FED UP!Wif The Student Heck-Care Attitude..
FED UP!wif ALL the Backstabbing..
F***er!!!!
Goodness..Really it was all chaotic..
Matrips & Minahs came face 2 face..
Heck Care & Slacker upclose & Personal!
KAU INGAT NIE BAPAK KAUNYE TEMPAT!!!!!

A beautiful yet sick..

2006-03-02T00:42:00.000+08:00

When 2 skewl on Tuesdae with a heavy heart..I donnoe why im feelin' dat wae..
Inside the bus,My throat felt sour n juz wanted 2 puke..My head throbbing..
I felt so sick..I endured it till the end of skewl which ended yesterdae at 8pm!
It was my very 1st stay-in-skewl-late..
The view was gorgeous even from below..The amphitheatre and 2 million Bucks Garden shone from the dark nite..Eventhough in that condition i still can observed the surrounding..
Back 2 myself..
Yesterdae i was feelin' sickly..I donnoe why..Wanting 2 faint,Dizzy,Stomache all in one..
I wanted 2 go home but as a sense of A bridge Leader i need 2 make sacrifice..
Wif a weak body i atend BL skit practice..I regretted But ironically i had fun but it was tiring..
They were concerned n asked me whether im ok..As i looked pale..
I juz smiled weakly n said im sick..
Still the show must go on...
B4 the skit ard 4pm..lessons ends early...So i forced Fitri 2 accompanied me..I noe followed me with a heavy heart but i dont care coz atleast i had a fwen 2 wait fer me till 5pm..
On the wae 2 cafe1..We saw a buch of guys sitting..Without my glasses it was a blurred..
I knew it was someone we knew coz he walked up 2 us..Hussein!!!
Wahahaha..he totally dressed up with pastel-pink Collar shirt and black pant..
Goodness!Rudy was there 2..he wore grey shirt n Black pant...
Fit n Me were laughing madly coz Hussein was ridiculously dressed..He tucked-IN!!
Overall..i lyke his gel-spiky hair..Eventhough the left side has flated a bit..
They were having Rehearsal fer the Oncoming "OPEN CEREMONY OF COLLEGE EAST"..
Got 2 noe who is Shahid..Hussein fren who resemble Taufik Batisah..I now noe why coz he was dark..hehe..
Back 2 myself again..Im still feeling sick while typing this post..
I did not wnt fer my 4 hours lesson..I still donnoe whter i want 2 continue 2 go 2
Sentosa fer BL A mazing Race..Should i tell Saygar(BL Chairperson) dat im sick..???
More on BL Sentosa L8r if im abvle 2 make it..

EavesDropping

2006-02-27T06:38:00.000+08:00

Oh Ma Gawd..Oh Ma Gawd!!!
I juz fininshed my BL meeting..and i was about 2 enter the lift 2 go 2 my next class when this group of 3 gerls..were giggling n were looking at one of the gerl's necklace..They were not obnoxious or snobby arr..
What capture my attention was what their conversation is..
The owner:Cantik kan..
2nd gerl:Yerlah2..Cantik2..but2 tiny..
3rd gerl..aar larh..Kalau org tanyer kau saper kasi,Kau nak jwb aper?
The owner:Hyrul arr kasi..
And the three of them burst laughing..
My eyes were bulging out when i overheard what they were talking about..
Contd..
3rd gerl:Oh mentang2 jumper hyrul nak step arr 2..
The owner:Tak salah per..Hyrul anuar..Bleh arr kasi necklace..
I was raring 2 ask them where they met him..
I cant believe my ears when they said that they saw Hyrul..
I really wanted 2 meet him but i did not get the chance 2..Haiz..
So..I decided 2 check on his Blog..Yeah he went out the whole dae..
Catching Movies & Eating out..
He watched final destination..Arrrgghh!!!!!!
The show was damn freaky sey..I caught the part 1 & 2..
Part3..Im saving my money 1st arr..I really wanna watched the show..
Ouh..He went 2 SUNTEC!!!!
And some of his fans lft him a tag..Happy able 2 meet him..Yadayada..
Ok..stop Making me JELES!

Selamat Bertunang

2006-02-27T02:36:00.000+08:00

It was a Hectic weekends..Totally peak-hours..Something dat i did not experienced..
Even my weekend job is not as havoc as this..
Kak Shikin's Engangement dae..The 2nd 2 happen in my Mother family side..
It was a glorious ceremony something that we will alwaes remember..
There are some teasing going around that i will be the next person 2 go..
i hope it will nyerhaha..
Kak Shikin looked so stunning..Wearing a modern baju kebaya yellow pastel in colour..
Wif veil & a small crown on her beautiful combed hair..
It doesnt looked lyke an engangement instead it juz like a solemnisation ceremony..
Juz have 2 wait fer the Groom..
What contradicts the happiest moment is that..
My grandparents,mak-chicks & pak-chix did not who is their Granson-in-law or Nephew-in-law..
Who is the mysterious man in Kak Shikin's life?
Hmm..we will lyke who???
Wow..a love story kept a secret..hehe..
The Man who Captures my dear Kak Shikin's Heart is Shafiee..
Both Initials are S's..
He also work in the Police Force..
Such a Romantic Couple..
Next it will be Kak Fauzana..Wif...Abang Farhat..Another 2 weeks 2 go..
Another Happening Ceremony goona happen..
I cant wait!
Hmm..Initial also F's..
so kiut..
*Thinking Deeply*Maybe i should search fer some1 wif the Initail J...

Had A blast of time yesterdae Nie till Wee Morning

2006-02-25T01:28:00.000+08:00

Had a blast Yesterday Nite till In the wee Morning..
I was having trouble with my Teevee..Been waiting 4 the Dimensi-4 in Suria..
But it still did not show up instead Mat Dobi..
Then tried 2 watch Pantai Timur(RTM 1)..
too mundane..Thou it was hilarious at the 1st take..
Yeah..my home does not have the SVC or the Starhub Cable..
If my Parents allow 2 install it..24/7..my house will fill with blasting sounds..
We will not die of Boredom..
Since there is nothing interesting on Teevee..I decided 2 on the Computer..
Btw..straight after skewl i quickly log on my com..with an excuse of doing project..hehe..
i did not bother 2 change still in my uniform i surfed the net..
anywae i still did my project ok...searching info 4 the bank loans..yadayada..
Until 8pm..
Then..i log on again at 10.30pm..
That was the time where i really started reminiscing about the past..
My Secondary skewl friends..My CloseMates are in there Especially Faizil..
Its been such along tyme since i chat with him..I really miss him so much..
His my gd friend in my secondary skewl daes..Btw we oso grew up 2gether in Eunos Primary..
We are so attached 2gether..
Mind You:I don hv any lovey-dovey feelings fer him..
I lurve him as a friend..
Then..Shera & Khai Appeared..I invited them so that we can crapped 2gether..
haha..Our fav pastimes during secondary skewl..
Sha came in but she did not talk much as she had 2 finish up her web-publishing project..
I became paranoid when she did not join in the fun..I was afraid she was angry wif me..
Ylarh..all this while we drifting apart..
Walaupun kamu jauh dimata tetapi kau tetap dekat dihatiku..Nyerhaha..
We talked alot about stuff..Marriage..Lifelong learning..
About Hyrul Anuar..Muahahaah..Funny sey..
Almost Everything about Life...There are lot of stuff we have 2 catch up..
I cant visualise nor imagine what will happen 10 years down the road..
Getting Hitch..Having Babies..Career-Minded Person..Adulthood..
Fer now lets juz go with the flow..
FHASHA,FAIZIL,KHAI,YAN,JUE I MISS U GUYS LOTS!!!!

A long list

2006-02-24T11:35:00.000+08:00

HeyYA!!
such a long tyme,did not update..(haha..Only 4 daes..)
LetsRecap!
Monday:I started n skewl wif CATFIGHT!(NgeeoooWWW)
Err..I mean real catfight..
I got a hell of a heart attack when I opened my house door...
The Cats were scratching and Screeching each other,balls of furs flying..
My heart thumped really fast..I quickly banged the door..
My mom who was wif me oso got a shock..
Its my neighbour cat with some stray..(I guess)
Coz i don have a good look at the both animal..
Now i realise that during the day i alwaes see..this black&white cat..
Near our corridor..I guess the cat nak miang2 wif the Janda(Hahaha)
My mom said dat if there are any cat fighting..Don beat them up..
Instead spray them wif water..I looked at her wif aghst..
If u sprayed at them..comfirm it came charging at u kan..
Hmm..I think dats the only exciting thing happen on Mondae..
Tuesdae:I got a call from Rudy on mondae nite..
He called me as i was selected for the BL skit..
So i went 2 the Meeting..
It was quite entertaining..Not so eyecandy..(If u noe wat i mean..)
Only the teacher..(I donnoe his name..0& Rudy aje yg Gd-looking hehe..(Cheeky me..)
Another guy name Din oso Kiut..
The other two??Hmm..Oklarh..
Yep..I got the part as a Little Brat gerl..Spoilt Rich gerl..
Crystal is her name..High-pitched voice..Flying kisses..Quarrelsome parents..
Hmm..Thats my exciting Tuesdae..
Wednesdae:
Went 4 the Sentosa Amazing Race Meeting..I am the Station 5 Player..
The Game Sucks Alot...Corny damn childish..Ooopsy!!Hehe..
The went 4 the skit practice..Until 7pm..
I so paiseh ehk act in front of the rest..
They all muka sardin acting haha..dgn penuh emosi..
Menjiwai watak2 yg diberikan..
Ouh..4get..B4 dat anticipation was The gruelling FDM test!!!!
It was horendous..I can predict that i did not do that well..
I juz hope 2 get a pass..
Thursdae(2dae):Went 2 skewl as usual half an hour late..
Hahah..Upon Reaching Huiyun Straight away said
"Aiyohh!!No class 2dae teacher said cancel..Until 12pm only..)
Me:Haaahhhhh!!!!??Really??
HY:The test rite LD..10 ppl fail while LB 20 ppl Fail!!
Me:Making faces..Scared expression..
HY:Mr Lim so quiet nvr said aniting..I guess our class he hvnt mark finish yet..
Me:Nodding...
So class ends at 12pm but went home at 5pm..
Goodness..Followed my BL friends 7 Their Class mate buying stuff fer their Bazaar tml..
Cant wait fer their delicious delicacies....
Now:Im soo tired typing...

Anugerah Skrin

2006-02-19T14:29:00.000+08:00

mIMI..Mimi aku ade berita Baik!!!
Kau nak tau tak!!(Jumping up & down)
Aku dpt masok Anugerah Skrin!!
Aku dpt masok Tv..(Hnads waving)
Kalau aku Menang!!!Aku dpt berlakon dlm Cerita Yusof Haslam..(Weeehhhee)
Aku..
Aku..
Akn mejadi..(Screech..Yeahhhh!!)
Seorang BINTANG!!!!

That was my script..I had a hard time in deciding which script should be taken..
We were only given 1min 2 choose e script..At 1st i was thinking bout taking MARAH..
I think twice..So i opt 4 GEMBIRA..Which it is much more easier..
Then 10mins 2 memorise e script..It was easy 2 remember.. as u see in the 1st paragraph..The difficult part was playing wif the emotions..
As u noe when u are happy u will be jumping up & down..and heck care if ur surrounding..
That is what i did as i enter the "bOX"..

Hai..Selamt Ptg..Najip..Kak Erra..Kak Fauziah..Norfa..
Saya NurulJannah
Berumur 19thn
Penuntut ITE simei
Pada Masa Lapang saya gemar membace buku & juga cuba resipi baru..
Errmmmmm..
Ouh..
Saya akan melakonkan watak Gumbira..
I was so nervous..Nerve-wrecking tau..
I forget 2 say why i decided 2 go 4 this Audition..
I quickly jump into acting it was funny(I think)
I was making a fool of myself..Kuangkuangkuang...
Memalukan sungguh...WwwwaaaaaaaaaAAA
People was laughing..i did not noe at me or the way i acted was entertaining..
I hope the 2nd option..
sO..after i acted the comment that i recievd was
"Awak nie kiut arr..(From Erra)"
"Saya suka awak pekik..i give u 2nd chance 2 show me agian..(From Najip)"
I was lyke a sotong..Standing there 4 a sec..Trying 2 swallow wat he was aaking
From me..
Ouh..he wanted me 2 act again..
I was really making a fool of myself..
eeeeeeee..paisehnyer...
Then..after that trima kasih dik..
Don ask me..Whether i was chosen 2 go 2 the next round..
coz i was still engulf in my own laughing stock..
I hope they wont show it on TV..
I did not felt so pasrah..I myself was laughing..
I had fun actually...
Hmm..but after a few steps..I kept asking myself..
If dey did not want me 2 continue..They will definitely said that "im sorry u out.."
Camner ehk??Must wait 4 their calls or WAT???..
kept asking Nazirah but she was 2 sleepy 2 answer..
But really it was fun..The long wait from 12pm till 5pm..
Totally sacrificing my time..
It has alwaes been my dream 2 be in the limelight...
But i hope it will not be 5mins only larh..
I really lyke performance art..Acting..Dancing..Singing..
Its juz dat i easily got anxiety attack..Everything will fall apart..
I will be waiting for their call..Be jumping & Touching the ceiling..
If i am able 2 go thru next round..
But if i did not..
Maybe i will try again at TM Next Weekends..
Hmm..maybe i shud drag the gals hawhaw..

Fixing A bRoken Heart

2006-02-18T14:10:00.000+08:00

im now..
Fixing a broken heart..

Im waiting..

2006-02-17T06:52:00.000+08:00

Im witing & waiting & waiting..
Ive been waiting since 8am juz now..
I went 2 Polyclinic 4 my rashes which had been itching since last week..
And the stupid Receptionist nvr heard me properly..
I asked 4 Lady Doctor..She blindly gave me male Doctor..
And she did not apologise 4 her mistake..
Ive been waiting 4 20mins..Luckily i had a sneak peek 2 see who is my doctor..
So i had 2 Re-register again...and hv 2 wait 4 nearly 1hr..
After That..
i have 2 wait again..Duh!!!
4 the blardy bus..
I can take any bus ranging from 2,24,31..
But i prefer 31..coz its nearer eventhou need 2 climb the bridge..
So..basically i was late 4 my lesson..Bus 2 came but i did not board..
I wanna took 31 as its alwaes rite after bus 2..
Wait & wait & wait..
The bus did not arrive but the 2nd no.2 arrived..
I was so pissed off...
So..I took bus 2..When i nearly reached the skewl bus stop..
I saw bus 31 took off..
Hell fury..i was so mad..
Then..I had 2 wait again..
As i took Bus 2..We were dropped at Engineering skewl..
Thats why i prefer 31 coz it dropped near Business skewl..
Anywae..
I was rudely tested..Coz the stupid lift did not wanna bugde and so ive been waiting almost 10mins..
So..i walked all the way 2 Business block 2 take the Lift..
Luckily..
The Lift is mich more understanding..

Nothing much happen..

2006-02-16T14:31:00.000+08:00

Nothing Much Happen
I myself cant actually remembered wat i had done 2dae..
Ouh..
Markie gave me a bear pat..4 being strong menempuhi segala rintangan di ahri smlm..
I went 4 BL meeting..On 1st March we gonna have this Amazing Race pat Sentosa..Weeeheeee..
I took as Station I/C..I cant be Task Force coz they will have 2 run around wif the team in search of the clues..
I had a harrowing experience..hahaha..i fainted..
Gosh!
Anywae..its gonna be fun..
Tml..meeting my dear OD..4 the last time..
Gonna miss them thou they are a bit nuisance..

Happy Valentines Day

2006-02-15T06:47:00.000+08:00

HaPPy VaLenTine Day

Lovey-Dovey couple walking down street..
Holding hands & Kissing on the lips..
Big Bouquet dozens of roses..
With a smelling feet..(Hahaha)
for the whole of my nineten yeras of life..
I really hate the day that is TODAY..
The Day where i should take a taxi ride home instead of the bus.
The Day where i should pretend that i am sick.
The Day where i should stay at home for the rest of the day.

Janna=Syurga

2006-02-13T11:11:00.000+08:00

Makcik makcik..Ape dah Kena wif u??
When 2 werk as usual..When suddenly bertembung wif dis Makcik..
Hahah..ask me who??I oso donnoe..
She kept scrutinising me..
Y i use dis words??Bcoz..She was checking me out hahaha..
She kept looking at my beautiful face..Hahah..
Then she started making small talk wif me..
I was so paiseh..Make sure..I nvr got anyting smudge on my face..
She asked me which family im from..Im werking or not..
Mcm interview sey..Interogate me...
Then she asked my name after endless qns..
"jANNah.."
Namer sedap..Mcm org dier..hehehe..
aww..I blush larh..
Wat u expect kan??..
Then..at werk pon the same thing happen..
This makcik was looking for trenchcoat..
So i recommended the only one..(get it??Left 1..hahaha)
shorten the story..
Her brother-in-law wif her sister(i guess)dtg..
Then he peered at my Breast..(goodness)
There is where my nametag i pinned it on..
He nochalantly said.."JannAH"
Sedap namer 2..Syurga..
I was grinning like a stupid fool hahaha..
But the Makcik nvr buy the coat it was wayy 2 small..hehe

2 many events

2006-02-12T10:56:00.000+08:00

guess wat??My bro fAiled his O lvl..My father did not noe dat..
my mom told us 2 tell him dat my bro can enter only ITE..
Goodness sake..putting high hopes 4 my bro..
He himself who Lurves Art soo much leh dpt D7..
Im much more better than him..haha..
Anywae..He took up all the Digital Media Design courses in all ITE..
The last option is Aerospace Technology..
I wish luck arr..he needed that..
He really don wanna 2 studt properly..
Hampa my dad..He wanna see us go Poly..
Kesian my dad..
Anywae..hahaha..Pesta Pesta Pesta was a blast..
Eventhou i miss watching it live..
The tix abis punyerlah cpt..
We called up at 1pm..
The Receptionist ckp dah abis..Mcm leh caya..
So..i was so devastated sey..nie sumer salah Naz..Or suroh pi cpt2 taknak..
If u want something badly..u going 2 queue & grab it fast kan..
Degil tol..
So..we dah tak dpt ape2 arr..
Org lain dpt autograh..I ngah berangan when will be the nxt tyme..
Anywae..Gosh he is soo KIUT..
Cant wait for Teman Anugerah Drama..
It Will Be aWesome!!!

We sing danGdut

2006-02-11T07:09:00.000+08:00

Asyik Asyik Asyik!!!!!
Hahahah..the last song we sung our hearts out..
actually wanna sang Jangan Pisahkan But we heard next door neighbour sang dangdut so we decided 2 out voice them & sang dangdut..
It was fun thou..As usually i did not mingle around wif them..More 2 at the corner side..
I went wif Nani&Her friends..
I paiseh..Hope they don tink dat im sombong or proud arr..
Luckily i got 2 sang my two fav songs..Dia & Seindah Biasa..
Learn alot of new songs eventhou some of them dah veteran...hahahha..

till the dae u come..

2006-02-09T10:39:00.000+08:00

Till the dae you come..

Life is Beautiful
To have many loved ones around you
to care for you,
To shower their love on you
But when will my time come??
To find the right one for me??
I always wish for a beautiful love.
A love story that is my desire,My dream
I envy couples out in the streets as they walked past me who is alone.
Love is beautiful to live for,and so
I did by waiting till that very day to come..
Patiently..

taken from:April who btw scribbling on my notes..

If you loved something
Set it Free
If it returned to you
Then it has always been yours
If it didn't
The its never yours to begin with

Mcm-mcm Ragam

2006-02-09T03:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae..a midst the confusion and Kesibukan..
We sure had a lot 2 laugh at Hahahahaahahah...
especially when April fell flat on her knees..(Kesian dier..)
It all started by teasing Emilyn..
April jokingly said dat emilyn look lyke Makcik2 with her dangling earrings & Ponytail hair..
Btw..Emilyn alwaes let her hair..Maklumlah cuaca panas..
So there is alwaes a child in thier body..so started lah drama kejar mengerjar hahahaha..
Luckily dat tme kita pat corridor lift..It was 3pm and i had 2 wait a blardy 1hr more for my ETP lesson..
Then..Lari saner lari sini...She tripped and felt..(if u visualise it u will laughing ur head off)
Wahahahaha...
I wanted 2 defence her from falling flat face..But she went and stretched her hand..
She scratched me accidentally with her perfectly manicured nails..So wif sudden painess i leaped out & she hahahahahah..PANCAKE!!!

Then..When home luckily not alone..
Nazirah buang tebiat & tak sehat from Home-Poly-Skewl..
She came back 2 "Fetch" me dat what she said aar..
Ni larh org giler dah sah takder keje wahahahaahah..
But niwaes..trimas 4 sanggup-ing berkorban utkku..Chewwahh!!
As usual our routine kalau dah blik mesti walk2 around Bedok central..
Wat make me baffled we are not sick & bored from the walking..
It was fun..

WMS punyerlarh susah

2006-02-08T05:51:00.000+08:00

AArrrrrrggghhhh!!!!!!!
Now in class concentrating on WMS=WIM practical Test..
Its difficult sey..
Mataku keroh me-scrutinise the numbers & instruction...
Did i tell ya dat i hate Teachers in this skewl????
Well..im gonna shout out loud Again..THEY SUX!!
They did not noe how 2 grab our attention..so many of my classmates had drifted away in LalalalaWOrld..
Only some of them including ME concentrated on it..
We having a CA PT2..Dis fridae..(Repeat DIS FRIDAE..)
And i still donnoe how 2 do the blardy software...(repeat donnoe!!!)
Gosh...If im gonna fail dis Test..Its gonna be GoneCase..
But its not my fault..(go on blame other ppl)
Yah..its the teacher's fault...
Help me plz help me ............................

Make friends wif hyrul Fans

2006-02-07T13:32:00.000+08:00

Its Difficult to make friends with Hyrul Fans..
At first sight..They kind of arrogant..Loud...
Somemore..they kind of in their Mid-Teens..
So..i was quite intimidated wif their looks..

But actually..
They are friendly..Make me feel welcome..
Make friends with Wana..Dilah..Abby.

Ouh..Abby was lyke me around the age..
She lykes Butterfly & Cinderella..
LyKE me!!!

I hope to keep in touch with them...

Freaking devastation..

2006-02-07T06:58:00.000+08:00

Im crying juz lyke a waterfall..
Lyke a dam which had burst...

Hahaha..very the poetic...

Newae..in this situation i should not laugh..
Haiz..Lost the chance 2 meet him Again..
Luckily me & Naz did not went straight 2 Mediacorp..
I told her 2 try calling2 them..So we called..& its BAD news..!!
The Tix HAS GONE..
Gosh..felt lyke crying..I noe i should not cry 4 him..
But i badly wanna meet him again..

Reaching my boiling points..I kept quite all the way..
They made jokes..Teasing each other..while i sat solemnly..Facing the truth..
That i CANT meet him again..
Im so devastated sey..Nvr i felt lyke this b4..

i juz hope that the hole in the ground juz open & swallow me up..
Im having mixed feelings..
I wanna Shout Out LLOOOOOOUUUUDDDDDD!!!!!!!!aaaaaaaRRRGGGGHGHHHhhh!!!!!!

Why i cant????????

WHat the heck happen??

2006-02-05T17:55:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!
Its either the com is spoilt OR Sum1 have been fidling wif my blog..
Damn it..I went 2 the template..& wanted 2 change the photo..so when preview..
When suddenly it was the beginning of everything..

Who the hell has my password??
I been checking..&logging off meticulously..
I did not appear vulnerable..
Ouh..Hope..Nothing bad happen..

It hurts so much..

2006-02-04T06:19:00.000+08:00

It hurts so much..
To see couples walking hand in hand..

It breaks my heart..
Whenever i see a plusize gerl with a slimwaist guy..

Her guy accepted her & Lurve her as who is she..
Who cherishes the moment with her everytie he meet her..

I alwaes wonder when is my time??
Call me desperate..BUT im NOT..

Isnt it normal??
when u are 19..& still singlelicious..
Dont u wonder??
Why the heck u are still single..??
when ur fwen are gazing into their boyfriend eyes..
When u all alone on a Saturdae night..
While ur Fwens enjoying the midnight breeze..

When will my time comes??
My friends kept telling me that..
One dae my perfect one will appear..
Dont look for it..
Let the lurve look for you..
It come out of nowhere & make u mesmerise by it..

Im impatient..
I surrounded by lovey-dovey ppl..
Its lonely on weekends...
I stayed at Home kept staring at the opaque walls..
Wondering whats next..

Allah..Please kalaulah aku ada jodoh..
Tunjukkanlah kepadaku..
Semoga aku tidak ternanti..
Kau Maha Pendengar Lagi Maha Penyayang..

Nvr updated

2006-02-03T10:06:00.000+08:00

Hello..
Happy beltaed Chinese New Year..

Dan kepada Umat Islam serata Dunia..
Selamat Menyambut Tahun Baru..Muharram..

Long tyme Nvr updated..
So many things 2 write down..But such a short time..
But..A lot of things i gain..
Anywae..I juz don have the strenght 2 pen it down..
So..

Tml!!!!FDM PT Test2..Arrrrggghhh!!!

Taman Warisan

2006-01-30T14:44:00.000+08:00

Wat will u get when u add+++
Pinkylicious+Tall+Broad shoulder+Highlight Hair=
HUNKIELICIOUS..
hahahah..

OMG omg...
Walked past Azmir&Fauzie..
I was wif my kid sister..when kita bertemboung ngan drg..
Soo Kiut..
My sis so shy..Malu2 kucing nak salam ngan drg..
As dey walked past..I smiled at them..
They smiled back..
Gosh..Fauzie made me melt..
Saw his gerl oso..So skinny..& Fair..Jambu sey..

BUT
HYRul wasnt there!!!
Waaaaaaaa....Somore..we missed the show Damn!!!

Unfair

2006-01-26T07:35:00.000+08:00

Haiz..Waiting for a long tyme..
But it never come my way..

Blog-hopping again&again..
I found gerls who are sooo lucky..
They get 2 go backstage,watch their show..
upclose&personal..

im here stuck nowhere..
How there get all this info???
They lyke paparazzi..
They noe every single stuff about him..
haiz..i onli noe a bit bout them..
thats all..

LIFE IS SO UNFAIR!!!

btw..now im in MLC..doing nothing xcept 4 serving the net..
Looking for blogskins that are suitable & match my mood!!
NONE

Totally recommended

2006-01-26T00:18:00.000+08:00

mUahahahahaha...!!
Little scaredy-cat..!!
Afraid of height....!!

Nvr heard this phrase b4 huh??
The only way 2 overcome your fear is to FACE IT!!!
nyerhahahahahaha....

I was giving up afraid dat i might slipped..Worse!Fainted..!
It was SSScAAArrrrriiiiiii!!!!
The teacher forced me to go..i wanted 2 turn back!!!
I was so afraid..
My mouth cant stop saying prayers...I guess my classmates can heard it..
Hahahahhaah..paiseh...

But..im able 2 make it..
It was fun..Felt lyke trying it again..
Weeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhheeeeeee

Wats Get into ME?????????

2006-01-25T06:44:00.000+08:00

What the heck happen 2 me??
I was possessed..

Nope..Not dat possess..
I went 2 Woodlands Causeway Point..
HAhahahah..Juz 2 eat @ LJS & went 2 Library..At Woodlands Civic Shopping Centre..
Duh..Am i Mad..
Wasting my time..
From the East Bedok TO North Woodlands..
Wat has got into My head???
Been totalling Confuse this past few daes..
I even Dragged Nazirah 2 accompany me..Hahahah
Pity the gerl..
But she a good sport..

Then..Yesterdae i did not went 2 skewl..
I had a very Bad Rashes..Damn itchy..
I was scratching myself..Lyke a monkey..
Those red dots on my Thigh..Gotta make ur lyfe a hell..
Muahahahahaah...

Now waiting 4 my lesson Entrepeneurship..
In the Library all alone..
I came 2 skewl onli 4 this ETP..haahhaha
I did not went 2 WIM...
Was late for Class..So they wanna CABOT..
hmmppphh...hung aroung from 12pm-3pm..
Saw my Bibik at Cafe 2..She selling there under Banquet..

Shheeessshhh..

Funny things

2006-01-21T15:12:00.000+08:00

Haw haw haw haw haw...

2DAE is DikNa's Bdae...wahahahahaah!!
Diana such an old lady..she juz turn A BIG 2-0...
Gosh..
Not a gerl..not yet a woman..
Bila mau kahwin??
Hope u lyke 2 puma bag we gave u..
Wish u all the nez in lurve..Health & Wealth.
Well..the babes planned 2 sabo her..
i couldnt make it coz i have a stall 2 attend 2..
So i really misz out from e fun..
They threw powder at her..Gerls??where is the eggs???
Hahahahaha..quite hilarious when they came down..
April&Diana only one who thoroughly diirrtty..
Flour everywhere..water dripping..
The others..amelin,fyqa,fel&Huiyun..sumernye coward..
They ran away when the bdae gerl wanna retaliated back..

Then..My sis at home made a video of me & Hyrul..
wahahahahaah..!!!
Klakar sey...Burok2...
Menaruh harapan..
Such a gd producer..Very fresh idea..
I lyke...
hahahahah....
i don lyke the storyline...she make me & hyrul berpisah...
How cruel can u be wati???
Sampai hati kau uat kakak kau camnie...
:(...

Cant believe my eyes my ears..

2006-01-21T15:00:00.000+08:00

2dae i had my fair share of suprises..
unbelievable..

Met Hyrul's Sister..She quite pretty arr..
Not lyke Hussein.Fitri..&Wan said..
dat she very ugly arr..byk pimple arr..Gigi jong arr..
Tak baik sey..
I saw her skipping 2wards Hussein whom i was talking 2 b4 being rudely interupted..
My heart skipped a beat when i saw her..all dis while im been waiting e tyme where i get 2 meet KHairiah..But it did not turn out lyke wat i had imagine..
She was kind of ignoring me & went Hussein introduced us..
She kind of has this stupid look on her face..
Hmm..Maybe shes juz shy..Nervous..coz we were in a group while she was alone..
I hope able 2 meet her nxt tyme & make friends wif her..Insyallah..

DID I HEAR IT RITE??
hYRUL CAME 2 MY SKEWL 2 PERFORM??
its true..Gosh..why i did not noe bout it??
Is it kind of for VIP only??
He was at my skewl in e morning..
haiz..gone by in the afternoon..
how i wish i can meet him...

He made my knees go weak..
NOPE!not hyrul..
Hahaha..yah hyrul do make my knees shake but Him..
different..
Juz began talking 2 him..
i hope i not prasan arr..
but he lyke hmm...give me e vibes..
hahaha...
I lyke him since e dae i saw him..
he very gd-looking..
Haiz..muz not put my hope so high..
I don wanna it came crashing down..
Lyke my b4 relationship..
JUz follow e flow..
I hope it will go smoothly..
insyallah..

the most blardy hell happened 2dae..
is the stupid konsert solo tix..
Damn..The receptionish at MEDIACORPTV12 was RUDE..
He hung up on me..
he don even wanna come up wif any explaination..
the moment i asked bout the tix..he asked me 2 hold on..
Then suddenly i heard engaged sound..
The IDIOT had hung on me..
While i praised those at mediacorp caldecolt..
She quite polite..she checked 4 me..
Inilah org melayu...kalau dah naik pangkat teros luper diri..

sleepy Head

2006-01-19T13:26:00.000+08:00

Wake up wake up its wednesdae morning..
Gosh..Im soo sleepy..
My eyes kept shutting by themselves..
Forced myself 2 open my eyes wide..

3rd dae of new intake January..
Im such a claustrophobic..soo many ppl..
met suhana..she is the semi-finalist of anugerah..
Hahaha..Hussein made me felt embarrassed when he was so hyped 2 meet her..
& shook me lyke im a fanatic fan of her..
She's very pretty gerl..Diff from her tv image..

still counting how many ppl will ask me bout Hussein & ME..
Still Thinking creative way of answering the same qns wif the same ans..
Ouh..we're juz fwens..Good Fwens..

Really..

Nuff say they're RUDE!

2006-01-18T13:20:00.000+08:00

nuff say..
Im not proud of u guys..change my perspective after u guys showed me ur true colours..Well watever it is i have 2 tolerate as im ur mentor..

nuff say..
U ugly bi-atch..No need 2 rolled ur eyes at me..When i wrongly ask qns to the WRONG person..No need 2 be soo sarcastic when e thing i wanna collected had been overdue..Last 5mins ago..

orientation of OD

2006-01-17T14:25:00.000+08:00

i can now heaved a sighed of relieved..
The 1hr orientation have gone smoothly..
It was nerve-wrecking..
Duh..39pairs of eyes kept staring at u..
I was quite relaxed after i received e response from them..
They quite enthusiastic..
We played th shoe-factory..remember names..
Only quite a few of the very demanding..
Attention-seeker..They kept staring you..
Intimidating sey..
But aniwaes..i do find some of my favourites..
He quite the joker..very sporting..
he's Taufik..
Hahahahah..cant wait for tomorrow...
It will be MORE exciting..

Got a new MP3

2006-01-16T14:28:00.000+08:00

Weeeeeehhhhhhhhheeeeeeee...
After months of gruesome collecting..
I finally own a MP3..
Im proud of myself coz bak pepatah melayu..
"Daripada titik peluhku sendiri.."
All my hard work..finally paid off..
Eventhough..its been eons ppl owned MP3..
i don care..step by step..
Now i wont be bored when i had a long ride..

Aniwae..I went out wif Fyqa(Naz closefwen..)& Naz herself..
We went peninsula..Bugis..
My only thing dat i wanna buy is MP3..
They shopped 4 Shades..ermm..i 4got coz they lyke carrying aoy of paperbags..
Hmm..cant be 2 impulsive..
nti duit abis..

Gosh..got dis 1 incident at Peninsula..
it was soo embarrasing..hehe..
Told u l8r..
now im tired..
Tml..The Newbies will start skewl..
Haiz..